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just need some words of encouragement

OK so i just read the entire post I just wrote and realized it has nothing to do with what I originally intended to say, but oh well.  Obviously I had something else on my mind.  Can't focus anyway...day 2...

sorry...

well my sweet wonderful boyfriend and i are in the middle of day 2.  we took up to 150mg of oxycodone a day (usually more like 80-100 though) in the form of roxicodone and recently got some oxycontin 40's.  we were lucky enough to get 40 methadone 10mg's on easter, so we used those and tapered down (sort of...addicts - you know...we took b/w 20-30mg on any given day, interspersed with the 20 10mg percocets we got)...  anyway so on the day before the last day we were on 10mg of methadone each, then on the last day 7.5mg each.  Those days were fine.  Yesterday sucked but we got through it and we even laughed watching Seinfeld (I know it sounds dumb, but when you're in w/d it seems impossible to laugh and mean it).  Last night was horrible, as the nights always are.  No sleep at all.  Today was worse that yesterday, but somehow the w/d seemed to come and go.  Tonight I really really really want to sleep.  I took something like a Tylenol PM last night (I can't remember the name of it now, but it was the PM part without the Tylenol) but it didn't work.  I have maybe 0.66mg of xanax (which would have to be split between bf and i of course).  Should I take it tonight?  Last time we were in w/d (this time last month...we go through it every month...ugh but that is another post) we took the xanax and were both sweating and sick all night, and it felt like the xanax made it worse.  this is so contrary to what i've heard about benzos during w/d, so i wonder if the sweating and sickness were from the w/d's themselves, and the xanax really wasn't making it worse?  we were cold turkey last time - no methadone.  sorry for the length.  what do you think?  do we take the xanax?
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honey- moving wont solve the problem.... No matter where you go,  if you want it bad enough- you'll find it.

I just posted a topic (its called 'Out of pills' or something like that)... Read it if you have time.... It might help you, & it might not.... Just an idea...

I know how you feel about the whole quitting thing.... But sometimes, you just gotta tell yourself, I may not like it & I may feel like **** right now, but Ive got to at least TRY to stop. Just to see how it goes..... You might find that life without the pills is easier & better for you....
I'll be checking back to see if you write...
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i just don't see myself doing that...saying no thanks then hanging up...i cannot get that into my head.  what does that mean?  i'm not ready?  but then when can i ever be ready?  i think we need to move...
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306455 tn?1288862071
2 Days into withdrawels and your on the forum looking for help....sounds like you're looking for a push or support to do it this time.  Why not now? You're already 2 days into it. If your supplier calls, very quickly tell him no more and hang up. Plan to do that. Get it in your head.
You've just got a few more days of withdrawels to go thru. Yes, it may get worse day 3 & 4 but it will so be worth it.
Are you ready to give it a try?
We're here to help you thru it.
Keep posting
Magi
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401095 tn?1351391770
xanax is not really intended for use with sleep but it does have that side effect for many...habit forming and tolerence can climb quickly..have u talked with your doctor about something for sleep...melatonin, valerian root and such work for many....you do need to consider giving them up...this does not sound like a fun thing to do on a monthly basis
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437415 tn?1211829556
You have to get to the point you're sick of the drug, chasing that buzz and even yourself.  
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340590 tn?1290952141
sure you can quit.  but you wont til your desire to quit outweighs your desire to be high.  you are 2 days into w/ds...what better time to just do it.  good luck  cathy
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i want to quit, i really do.  but i don't know what i'll do if my supplier calls...i know what i'll do... i will pick up.  but i am losing everything.  what to do?  you have to WANT to quit right?  well i WANT to i just CAN'T!  does that make sense?
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Are you guys trying to quit the pills or just out of your supply?

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thank you.  i didn't think anyone would answer me.
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.66 of a xanax  I doubt will do much , if it's all you got.......I would take it, meaning If it were me I would take it......  You both are doing great.  I wish you well.

Nauty..............
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