need quick advice pregnant been on subs 2wks

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

Need advice. Been off opiates, & on 8mg suboxone & Subutex  almost 2 wks now.  Found out I was pregnant at last apt. I know these subs are keeping me from full blown w/d. However,  I'm still reminded by this pain in my back, why I began taking pills in the 1st place. I say that to say, what good am I really getting out of this.
Question is, is it safe to stop after 2WKS of being on this stuff. Cut down to 6mg y.day. now today. I've only taken 1mg. Of course,  I'm paying for it. But I Don't want to hook my body on something else. Would tapering at this point be best or do doing I run the risk, of actually getting hooked?!
Please help. I'm stressing my damn self out! I don't know which way to go. All I know is, I can't risk facing my husband/family finding all this out , which they will if I allow myself to keep taking this. I.e cps, babu extended stay in nicu, due to withdraw.  I just can't risk all that.

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

And after two wks on subs, am I really going to w/d from it, or would I be w/d from the opiates still?  I have not felt anything out of the normal so far.  Definitely  A Little UNCOMFORTABLE.  Which could also be , because I'm still in the early stages of this pregnancy.  

If I did start rolling feel w/d's,  I would of course up my dose & get to a hospital.  I wouldn't intentionally do anything to hurt my unborn. So let me make that clear!  I know my body, & o know my limits. I just geel, I'm at a point where I can , safely leave this mess alone,  before it's too late. If I had to wait a whole pregnancy,  I'd be addicted to this for sure.

Seemingly , doing exactly what this Doctor wants. I do not want to put down 1 habit, only to pick up another. This can't be life!

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

How to quickly taper, as safely as possible!  

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

Thank you both, I have a lot to think about. .. the only place that'll help with a taper here.. is if you allow them to admit you for intensive detox which is a moth stay at least. ..smh which isn't going to do me any good! As I Statde before,  I have a 2yr old, with no help. Ugh
I did/do plan on telling my obg, if I failed to come up with a quick & effective enough plan. To get myself off of this crap.
From all I've been told, regardless as to whether or not I'm honest.  If this baby comes out with withdrawals , cps has to come check it out? Plus the baby would have to stay in the hospital. I've left the hospital without my babies b4 (twins in 2012) although this would be temporary,  I can't see myself doing it again!  Not to mention,  I would have to explain to my family. A baby going thru w/D's because of something I could have prevented, by going thru the w/d my damn self. I only started the subs because I couldn't handle the w/d's. The didn't mention I was only postponing the inevitable! Feel like I was taken advantage of! Now I'm damn ed if I do, damnd if I don't.
My family would not be understanding about this. I told my dad, & he's as down to earth as it gets. & even he didn't have any advice,  other than. "You have to figure a way to get out of this sweetheart ". Lol my husband is the 1 person,  I cannot tell! He is old school,  & then I run the risk of ppl getting involved in our business, he would not, fogive me for doing this to any of us. & i cant blame him! That's alot to lose! My decisions can make or break my family at this point.
  I'm only about a month into this pregnancy.  I'm not willing to jeopardize, loosing the child I already have. I'm just f'd pretty much. I've been lowering my doses.  Trying to get to at least 4mg, (made it on 5mg all day today)
Once I make it to 2mg, I feel like I'll be able to slow the taper down.
I figure, I've almost been on it 2wks now.
at this point,  my backs against the wall, & I just need to  know,

[dominosarah]

I never had experience with that as my kids are in their 30"s!!  Your OB needs to know what you are taking just in case their would be issues such as wd at birth.  In some states babies are tested for drugs in their system and that is when CPS steps in.  That is why we are so big on honesty here.  Better to be safe than sorry.  You shouldnt be black listed if you are honest.  I know you are scared but you will feel a ton better once you talk about this.

[addlover]

Sorry not sure what happened to the rest of my post
I was going to say, come clean with your family

[addlover]

If you are prescribed sub you won't be contacted by cps. But your baby may go through withdrawal. It's not dose dependant. You could be on a high dose and your baby never go through wd,  or b on a low dose and your baby does go through wd. But it's going to b difficult keeping it from your family
you need to either come

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

Thanks, that may be an option.  I would love to be able to do it safely with guidance.  I'm just afraid of it being held against me. I know it can go either way.  Then that's stuck with me for the rest of my freaking life!
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo  mad at myself for getting caught up in this web! I knew better!  
I know it's too late for all that. But thank you, for your input. That may be the best way to go. Long as I'm off months before delivery,  I shouldn't have any problems . Have either of you ever had an experience like this??  If so what was the outcome?

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

Thanks, that may be an option.  I would love to be able to do it safely with guidance.  I'm just afraid of it being held against me. I know it can go either way.  Then that's stuck with me for the rest of my freaking life!
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooo  mad at myself for getting caught up in this web! I knew better!  
I know it's too late for all that. But thank you, for your input. That may be the best way to go. Long as I'm off months before delivery,  I shouldn't have any problems

[needhelpgetting2otherside]

My sub provider, suggested me staying on 8mg for 6 months before tapering down. That is not an option for me. So I took that as, he is money motivated. He is not looking out for mine nor my unborn best interest.  As far as my ob. I haven't been seen yet. I definitely wanted to have a plan in place before confiding in them . I don't want to risk being, "black listed", have cps in my business,  baby going through w/d, being exposed to my family etc etc. Too much to risk at this point.  I Don't have a choice but to taper, at this point.  I just am unsure How, to go about doing,  slowly.  Or a little quicker. I have plenty of time. But idk how soon before my body becomes addicted.  Or how long do I need to be off of it, to prevent my baby having w/d outside of the womb.  Ugh
I do understand your concern, prospective.  However,  I'm not in a position to do either.  It was hell, finding this doctor to prescribe.  It's hush hush, where I'm from.

oh another  thing about him, he's not EVEN THE PRESCRIBING DOCTOR, he told me the real doc, is busy & he's helping him out. So that was how he explained his name not, actually being on my prescription.  I should have ran then. But I was desperate.  More so now, that I know I hava baby coming!

[dominosarah]

For your safety and the baby's you need to discuss this with your OB.  They can monitor the baby while you taper down under their supervision.

[IBKleen]

Hi Hun, Listen....anything that is happening to you is happening to the baby. You need to talk with your prescribing physician and your OBGYN. Let them make the decision for what is right for you. I don't think you should continue the taper on your own. Please get to your doctor. Let us know how you are doing.