need ur support for opiate addiction!

[bchang123]

I know your situation all too well. I've been using pain pills recreationally for over 6 years now and just late last week, I decided enough was enough and went on a mission to seek help. Unfortunately, all the suboxone doctors here in town are all booked and the ones that DO have available appointments don't take insurance, just cash or credit and like you, I just don't have the money to pay for it. I finally found a walk-in outpatient clinic but the catch is, you HAVE to be there between the hours of 5-11 am EVERY morning and I'm DEFINETLY not a morning person although I work day time hours. LOL. Its a methadone clinic and you have to be there every morning to take your dose and group counseling every friday. I just started my outpatient treatment so I'll let you know how that goes. :)
I guess your wondering what I was taking? Well, I'd take whatever I can get my hands on, vicodins, oxycodones', norcos', oxycontins', etc., and I'd do at least 30 vikes or norcos in one day, and a bottle of oxycodone 30mgs in less than a week. (I used to get a rx for them and my dr would prescribe me 90 pills for each month) My pain management dr runs drug tests during every visit to make sure you're not taking anything illegal AND to make sure you have what he prescribes you in your system so he knows you're actually taking them and not selling them. I was dismissed from his office bc my drug tests keeps coming up negative every time for oxycodones but positive for vikes. After that incident happened, I just knew I needed to quit. Plus the fact that since I was not working at the time, I'd lie and spend my husbands hard earned money PLUS my son's social security checks that he gets each month on buying pills off the streets and leave my family to suffer bc of my addiction. We almost got evicted from our apartment bc of me. had our electric shut off once or twice bc I used the money that was supposed to pay for it on drugs. My husband and kids know that I'm addicted. My kids understand but my husband doesn't, although he loves me and supports me in every way that he can. I've put my family thru so much and am more than greatful that they are all still standing beside me, especially my husband. Its only been a week of me being on outpatient rehab and tho the methadone makes me sleepy as f*ck, I feel "normal" for the first time in a long time. I still get cravings for the pills but they're not as strong bc of me being on methadone.
There's more to my story. Perhaps, I'll put it on a new thread and share it with everyone when I have the time. Until then, wish me and everyone out there who is struggling to overcome this horrible addiction good luck!

[haley726]

hi. I understand that you are trying to do better and move forward because I have been in your shoes. I know how much stress, money, time, etc. it takes to get pills and I know it hurts to w/d from them BUT...and I really hope you put some thought into this, methadone is NOT the answer... I am 39 days off of methadone, and let me tell you the cold-hard truth. Whatever withdrawal you will have from the pills that you think you can't live through is nothing in comparrison to methadone w/d. If you don't believe me post a question or do an online search about methadone w/d. Take vicodin w/d and times it by, oh, I don't know, a million and stretch it out over 6 months to a year or more. I know methadone sounded like an answered prayer at first, but as it turns out, it's the devil in disguise, so think long and hard about this. When I went to a clinic all I was doing was trading one drug for another. I just would hate to not at least tell you my opinion and my experiences with the methadone clinic. Whatever you decide, good luck and God bless.

[lostinthewind2002]

I want to start this by honestly wishing you all the luck possible in overcoming your addiction, I understand all to well what you are going through phsically as well as mentally and it is a long and  twisted road ahead as well as behind you. The thing is you have made a choice to get better and whatever your reasons for that are, is what you need to keep in the front of your mind 24/7. I will be honest with you and please don't think I am being rude because that is the last thing in the world I am trying to do, you have started a process that is working right now but the road ahead of you is an extremely hard one. Be careful because a lot of the Methadone clinics are for profit and they control your dose and a lot of the M.C.  Want you on it for an extended period of time, make sure that you decide how long you want to be on it and that you remain in control of the sitution otherwise you are just going to end up swapping out one addiction for another and you will still be in the same boat just with a different substance controlling your mind, and body. Alot of people say the best way to do it is cold turkey, but alot of times it isn't a feesable option for your life, and from what you have said about being a wife,mother and holding down a job that isn't a workable situation for you, but make sure that you create an after plan for yourself and plan ahead if this is what you truly want. If you don't do it for you then there is no reason to do it, doing it for others is the wrong way because other people can let you down but doing it for yoursekf will help with improving your self worth and that is really the only way to go about this. I wish you nothing but the best of luck and if you ever need to talk feel free. This is a great community and the really care and try to support others!

[sudie58]

i just wanted to wish you well, its a shame you werent put on a taper, as youve got to come off methadone yet, i wonder why you were looking for a sub dr. as i worry you may be swapping one addiction for another, but its really good you want your life back, best wishes and god bless.

[Devonlee]

I wish you the best of luck...it isnt easy but with hard work.....the right frame of mind and help... you can do it!