oxy addiction

[ikdogg]

well i was 2 weeks clean from oxy and i went and messed up and have done it a couple times this past week.  i finally started feeling better so i thought i could go and do it, boy was I wrong.  I'm going to stop again, but was kinda wondering if anyone has gone through this and why do I mentally crave it so bad.  I went through hell quiting and here I am doing it like every three days again.

[ikdogg]

I dunno, I just was basically bored and wanted to have fun.  I thought i was through it all so i felt like getn a buzz i guess.  I thought i could control it and just do it once.  Its like i have to re learn life, because everything has lost its meaning and was SO much more fun when I'm high on opiates.  I've never done herion so I don't know much about it but I can snort over 100mgs of oxy at once so I do have some what of a tolerace.  I would like to stay away from them for ever but it feels like I'll never be myslef or have fun without them, its kinda scary.

[gizzy32]

I have relapsed so many times, thinking I was cured after staying a few days clean and that I was strong enough to use just once more, but as you have realized it does not work like that. Using once more never happens for us, it just feeds our addiction and many times we fall deeper into using.

At least you learned from this and hope you get back on track again. Although w/d's are hell, the mental part and cravings is what we have to protect ourself against and getting some type of aftercare can do wonders to help you STAY clean. Recovery is a process, so don't give up. What triggered you to use after getting clean? Was it the cravings?

[uscphil]

I don't see how you could go through that much torture, quitting then going back.  THat first 2-3 days was so painful I will never go near anything. I am only on day 7 and feel lethargic but I bought a bunch of different vitamins so hopefully I will feel good again.

[breezyfbaby]

hey, ive been there...ive detoxed over 10 times in the past 3 or 4 years...the longest i stayed clean was 2 months...but for the most part id wait a month 2 weeks 3 days....i always go bak...for the past year ive been doing heroin tho because its cheaper, now i dont even get high anymore...it shouldve been my 3rd day today...but i used. did u take suboxone thru ur detox? that helps with cravings, but to me if u use suboxone for a long period of time and a large mg...ur just substituting for the oxy and then u gotta get off the sub and go through withdrawals anyway. but anyway...i ask myself the same thing sometimes...y do i always go bak so much time wasted...ive put myself thru soo much pain so many times just to find myself back using...alot of the reasons i go bak are because i keep talking to the same people, i get bored...i want to have fun, i dont know how to have fun without opiates.I go back because its all i have...its all ive had for the past 3 or 4 years...
YOU NEED TO FIND SOMETHING NEW! IF U TAKE SOMETHING OUT YOU NEED TO PUT SOMETHING IN ITS PLACE (NOT A DIFFERENT DRUG)
its hard to rebuild and find something new...but its our only hope. i hope this helps you!