pleaseee help beat my oxy addiction .I need ur support

[wai92]

Hi I came on this site, looking to beat my oxy addiction. I just turned 20years old last month. I been snorting up to 8 to 12  oxy20ss for the last 6 months,160mg-240mg per day ( been snorting on and off since 2010)  I bought it from the street, I wasted ALMOST 20GRANDS over the last a year or so.  It has taken over my personal life and it had destroy my family also. I was a very happy person before this, I never thought I be hooked on this $hit. I bought my first car when I was 16 years old and had a very loving family. I was always the group leader in my crew growing up, I had lot of friends in highschool and was one of the cooler guys in the school, i would say. But EVERYTHING HAD CHANGED. I no longer talks to my dad anymore, and my mom is begging me to quit everyday. I cant keep seeing she cries over her drug addictioned son, ME. I droped out of college cuz I no longer can go into class withdrawaling cuz I couldnt found any the night before, I lost my job over me calling 7 sick days in a 25 day spams cuz of the withdrawal. I m no longer chasing the dragon , I just want my old life back, I want my family back. I dont want to keep on living this life style. I just snorted the last oxy I had and PLANNING TO GO COLD TURCKEY. LET ME KNOW IF U SHARES THE SAME OR PAST EXPERENICE DEAL WITH THIS. THANKS YOU

[selfinduced]

You've come to the right place. You sound like a very mature guy with a big heart that is in over his head. Your Mom knows which is great and she sounds like she will be very supportive. Is rehab an option for you? What about going to your family Dr. and laying the cards on the table so you've got additional support? If c/t is your choice there are many things you can do to soften this process. I will not lie, it is not a cakewalk, but many have done it and do it everyday. Look up the thomas recipe on the bottom of the page. Get the supplies as well as some immonium for the tummy issues. Rent some movies, get some protien drinks, sleepytime tea, comfort foods. If your mom or someone can stay with you for a few days, it'd be ideal. This is not hopeless...Keep reminding yourself why your doing this. Make a list to refer to when your mind starts talking crap to you about.....just one pill will help. You'll be fine, just will take time. Others will be along with more advice. You are so young and so wise to do this now.

[wai92]

Thank you for reply, I m very glad to hear from u . I checked out the THOMAS RCEIPE and will try to go get some, but I dont have a family doctor at this moment yet and the rehab down here have 250 ppl on the waiting list. I wanna to know why does my stomach act up. like when Im withdrawaling my stomach get this grinding effect and sort of hungry at the same time. But some how i wouldnt able to force my meal down. but the funny thing is as soon I snort a pill, the grinding goes away and my stomach no loner hungry either. Thank you, I really thankful to have supports from you.

[keith187]

hello wai,i am on my fifth day of kickin oxy not a walk in the park but it can be done.i am just starting to feel like a human again.i am doin the thomas recipe and i beleive it helped,replaced valium with tylenol pm i was scared of getting addicted to valium.i also lost my job because of my addiction,i wll find a new job once i get myself right.treat your recovery like it is a life and death situation cause i think it is.hang around this site for a few days it helps.get well

[sara752]

yes i am just like you...i have  17 days clean..i wont kid you, detox is hard..oc kinda just hang on..the worst part 4 me was the no sleep no energy..but i will say knowing what i no now..i would do it all over again..i never want 2 go back 2 that chasing ( just to maintain) the high has been gone 4 a while now.  i want my life back too..we can do this. i will help ypu any way i can..just know that you are worth it.. god bless  sara

[selfinduced]

Hey Wai,  I know exactly what you are talking about with the stomach deal and I have been given the reason why opiate do that to our digestive system. Just can't recall the science behind it, but it is totally NORMAL when you miss a dose. You'll get much support here. Let us know when and what route your going to go and we'll walk you through. Getting prepared mentally and physically is half the battle. Your worth this..... It is the rest of your life we are talking about!

[wai92]

Thanks everyone for ur supports on my first day on my recover to a new life. I feel really bad and hella sick, I feel the withdrawal kicking in, since my last dose was 6 hrs ago only just (20mg) and it wasnt even near the amount(120-240mg) I usually take to feel good. But hey, I m already over the high and just want my life back, I cut my phone off this morning so I have no contact with my dealers or any of my friends that use too.

[mary577]

I have no experience with oxys or snorting any kind of drug, but I just want to welcome you to the forum and tell you I am hoping and praying that you can beat this.   I believe you can.   Stay with us and post often and let someone who has been there, walk with you through this.  

[GarbageAddict360]

Dude I was snorting 50 30 roxicet a day.  I used to do the oxys before they changed the formula and you couldn't snort them anymore.  This crap ruins lives and brings us addicts to our knees. I decided 95 days ago to take my life back too.  It was hella difficult, but I am so thankful that I did.  I can tell you that it was like having the flu for a week.  My advice is to wrap yourself up in some blankets, get some heating packs for your back pain, take Aleve for headaches, take Immodium for stomach issues, Melatonin 20 mg for sleeping issues, valerian root for anxiety.  Keep posting and we all will walk you through this.  Congrats on making the decision to kick this nasty habit!

[wai92]

damn  hate this feeling.... hope this will go away soon

[D713]

i'm in the same shoes as u bro...esp im in college dont wanna go school having withdrawls.

[wai92]

I wish I never start this bad habit of my. I feel so sad the horrible stuffs I had put my family through, I love my parent very much and I never realized how much they care for me and willing to support me on quiting this ****, I just wish everyone who is in the same shoes can have the supports from their family too.

cheers guys

[selfinduced]

You both have the perfect attitude. Your doing the best thing you could possibly do. College is tough, so is disappointing your parents. If you continue though it just gets worse and you could be 50 like many of us and be disappointing your kids. Right now the emotional and depression is hitting, just know this will improve in a few days and you'll wonder what all the tears were about. Hydrate, eat healthy, talk a good multivitiam.  (seriously the vitamins are huge). Take it hour by hour......

[wai92]

hey thank you for ur advices and supports, I cant believe there is so many ppl out there went through or going to through it, I really grateful I got some supports and advices from good heart ppls on this site. I will not giving up this time, I know tonight is going to be tough bt i will make it through it .

[quitinoxys]

Hello and welcome to the forum, it is great that you want to get your life back free of the evil oxy. You sound like a mature and responsible young man. I started taking oxys about ten years ago due to a severe spinal injury. I started out on a low dose and of course I built up a tolerence and had to take more and more.....well you know you've been there. Before I went C/T I was up to 240 mg oxy/day with another 60 mg percs/day. If your counting thats 300 mg oxycodone a day. During this time I lost interest in everything I loved to do and just sat around in a vegitataive state. Everyone around me was excusing this (enabling me) because of my injuries. One day I found my wife sitting in a room crying and I asked what was wrong she replied "I lost the man I used to know" I asked what do you mean she replied "I know you have pain but those drugs are taking your and my life away" I sat down and thought about what she had told me and actually GOT MAD. After that day I decided to co cold turkey and get off of the terrible drugs. I have now been clean off oxys for over 2 1/2 years.

So with all that said, I understand the pain your Mom and you are going through. The best solution for you at this point is to just quit and go C/T. You are young enough to get your life back on track and get yourself back into school. Look right now you realize you had mad a mistake, and that takes alot of courage to admit that. You can change the course of your life so just go for it.

You mentioned in a previos post that you checked into the Thomas Recipe, it helped me immensley through my w/d. I am not going to sugar coat it for you w/d is a week of feeling like crap. You just need to tell yourself that I will be OK not feeling OK for a while. The w/d process takes about 5-7 days and then the head games start. But lets not get into that now just go for the detox and get over that. I am here if you need to talk, rant, yell,curse or whatever you need to do. Like I said I have been there and done that. If you want you can PM me anytime, I am in your corner and I am praying for you so lets just getter done. God Bless---Rick    

[wai92]

hey thanks a lot rick, good for u able to get off for 2 and half, do u know if there is anything i can do to help with the sweat? thank you

[quitinoxys]

Do you have a swimming pool or somewhere you can juump in and cool off? I also found that taking a cool shower helps. Hang in there your doing great---Rick

[Nighthawk61]

Congrats on the decision to stop the merry go round. Your doing the right thing for yourself and your wonderful family.  Soon , all this will be in the past, you've got a "virus" just let it run it's course and don't worry too much about the negatives, it's not life threatening and you will forget it and start living in the present soon enough. I'm worried about your dealers, your going to have to have an aftercare program for yourself, NA, to help deal with your triggers.  

Here's the Vancouver NA hotline, might help you to bond before you're done with detox  604 873 1018, 1 866 683 6819.

Best of luck Bro,

Liz

[Nighthawk61]

I assumed you were in Canada, if not, check your local area for NA hotline, i'm sure it could help. Hope you're planning on using meetings.

[quitinoxys]

How are you doing today? I hope you are feeling a little better. Just keep going you will make it.---Rick

[quitinoxys]

Het haven't heard from you for a couple of days how are you doing? Come back on and post to let us know how you c/t is going. There are many people who can help and give support through all of this. So let us know how you are. I am pulling for you God Bless---Rick

[Nighthawk61]

hey you, i'm worried about your triggers this weekend, how'd you do with all of this? "Today is a new day!"

[wai92]

Hi Im sorry , I could 't update the last 2 day, due to the fact, I was hospliazted on Saturday. It happend in the early morning , after I woke up with HUGGE AMOUNT OF sweats. I toke a nice 45 min hot shower,bt it didnt work as well, comparde to 1 and 2 day.  And I also was feel outta breathes with really really bad anxitey.by 8am I CALL 911 and they told me on the phone to check my pulse and it was really low 17 beat /15sec. once they arrived they noticed the clamy skin.

[jusmejen]

Hey. Just waiting to let you know that you can and will have this beat! Determination and patience are really needed, you must remember why you are doing this. Stay focused and strong. I am presently 29 days clean, and although lacking in energy, feeing soooo much better. Dont give up. You are so worth it, and your family will love having thier son back. Take care  and keep us posed on how u r making out.

[Hardlife8989]

I no how you feel I'm 11 days clean as I'm writing this and still haven't been able to sleep at all not one minute I live on here and have for the past ten nights it helps to just read the post but I have talked to professionals and they say the only thing that really helps is in your head tell your self you can do it think positive and have faith and pray to god! You can do it cause your in the right direction I was taking just as much as you and quit cold turkey I feel a million times better after the 7th day it kinda eased off besides the sleep! One thing I will tell you to get that helped me sooo much is ImodiumAD it works to help with the stomache pains that's all I used the whole time and I'm still not there yet cause the sleep but if I can do it you can! Remember when you start shaking get in the hottest bath and lay there it's a long hard process I didn't think I would make it the first few days but I did! I'm praying for you though and that you have the atrength to get through cause it's not a joke at all and is a long wait! Eat salads and greens that helps a lot too! I'm 23 this was my one and only addiction and looking back I learned from it and I could never go back! If you have any questions I'm here and clean and will help you out as much as possible! The Thomas diet is a joke it don't work I tried it all too! But good luck man and I wish you the best! I'm praying always for people like us to make it!