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psychological warfare
I had bilateral hip replacement 14 months ago...i have whats called "heterotopic ossification" which is basically excess overgrowth of bone that is now hindering my hips...its been a LONG painful winter. I had a bone scan done about 8 months ago and it showed active bone growth and i was told they cant go in and fix the problem until the bone stops growing...(thats the short background version). i went to my year check up this past Feb...since i knew they were going to do scans and what not i took a pregnancy test...WHAM!! I was pregnant (was on depo so didnt know). Needless to say...they couldnt do the tests and i made an appt the next day w/my pain mgmt dr...(i swear theres a point to all this) on to my dilemma...i've always struggled with the psychological warfare of the pain meds and i have walked the line of addiction. i have legitimate pain...days i literally cant walk...prior to the pregnancy i would always finish my 30 day supply about 5 days early...but i preferred this cuz it would give my body a breal from the meds and keep me somewhat level...so my meds were oxycodone 7.5/325...i would get 120 a pop...thats 4 a day. since being prego which has only been one scrip so far my dr says he gives preggo women oxycodone 5mg (no additives/tylenol) at a max of three a day...so the script was 90 pills for 30 days...i spoke with all my drs and they all agreed that oxycodone is the only class B drug and is the best choice during pregnancy. Well i took them very quickly because the pain i have can be very debilitating and i have a two year old...its impossible not to get up and move all day long...so needless to say i havent had pain meds in weeks...which is fine. I didnt go thru any physical withdraw at all...since i would let my body detox monthly as it...but i have been in sooooo much pain and it *****. Now the warfare begins...my next script is due to be filled on the 10th...im afraid i wont be able to overcome the battle...if i take them as perscribed then it doesnt help the pain and it seems pointless...if i take more i get to feel human again and actually walk thru the grocery store...but now there is a baby involved...its awful to have legitimate pain and have to desl with the burden of waking up everyday and making the choice...mind or body. If i take the pill i have body...but no mind...if i dont take it...i have a clear mind but cant walk...i am tired of the pain. im only 37 and i hope this hip thing resolves itself once i and able to have my surgeries...but in the mean time how do i handle this phychological warfare?? i havent been able to walk right or sleep right in weeks from all the hip pain...but im not sure i can take the meds right either. The 10th is approaching fast and i have mixed emotions about getting the script filled. Im not physically addicted to percs...i am addicted to feeling human again when i can actually go up and down the steps w/out whincing and doing them one at a time...UGH!! I dont know what to do...my addiction is totally psychological...it *****!!!
Thank you for listening...it makes a huge difference to know someone actually cares :)
You might try speaking to your OB about this some more. There are other pain meds that are longer acting with a few more mgs as well. Quality of life comes into play here.
There are many women who have come through here who have had chronic pain issues and have remained on meds their entire pregnancy. Don't give up just yet!
There are many women who have come through here who have had chronic pain issues and have remained on meds their entire pregnancy. Don't give up just yet!
Totally stuck...yes...but not all negative. I have a beautiful and brilliant two year old that is my heart and soul. I just have NO support system at all so its a struggle...but i manage. We cant afford to hire outside help...money is tight...but my best friend of 20 yrs comes biweekly to scrub my house from top to bottom so that helps some...as far as the meds go the only way the three a day help is if i take all three at once...one 5mg pill of perc does not touch the pain...so thats where the battle comes into play...i feel its pointless to take it if its not helping...so i take more than prescribed so i can actually take my little one to the park then hit the grocery store on the way home and actually be able to carry them in and put groceries away. Before i got pregnant i was on 7.5/325 X's 4 a day...and that did really help...but this dose now almost seems pointless...im feeling like im stuck.
Okay. I try to approach things in a more positive fashion. The way you talk, you are totally stuck. Its all negative.
So, you say you can't take just three pills a day. Is that because of the pain?
You're not taking anything now so I would think that three would be somewhat of a relief to you.
The stress of severe pain is not good for the unborn baby. You need to do some thinking here. If you don't have family and friends, you need to hire someone to help with housework,child care,grocery shopping,etc..
So, you say you can't take just three pills a day. Is that because of the pain?
You're not taking anything now so I would think that three would be somewhat of a relief to you.
The stress of severe pain is not good for the unborn baby. You need to do some thinking here. If you don't have family and friends, you need to hire someone to help with housework,child care,grocery shopping,etc..
My husband has no clue i take the meds...hes seriously against pain meds...he doesnt understand what real pain is...as stupid as it sounds i wish i had a magical dispenser that ony gave me my three pills a day...i havent had meds other than lots of tylenol which is a freakin joke in about three weeks...but my drs told me thats way worse for the baby than the 15mg of percs a day...my new script is due to be filled the 10th...the mental battle has started!! As far as help...my hubby works 14 hour days...hes an officer...no room for cutting hours with that job...we live close to HIS family...but they are no help "thats another whole can of worms"...my mom has lupus really bad and isnt capable of helping my two best friends live 45-60 mins away in opposite directions...they try to come help...but they have school aged kids...so its frustrating. reading these posts scare me...i dontwanna cross this fine line im walking...part of me wants to tear up this script...but im so tired of hurting :'(. i havent even been able to get my two year olds pic with the easter bunny yet!! hubby promised to take her tonight when he gets off...UGH!!!
You don't seem to have many choices here. To me, you need to accept this hand you've been dealt and go from there...
Going for OTC meds is not a good idea so ask the doctor about that. In time, the three Percocet a day will work if you stick with it. Is there someone who can hand them out to you? I think it's unrealistic to just quit everything, given the type of pain you describe.
Do you have a husband or boyfriend to support you?
Until you can get this hip problem resolved, you need to make some lifestyle changes. You need to have some help at home. Right now you're disabled and if you approach things from that perspective, you'll think of ways to adjust your activities.
Going for OTC meds is not a good idea so ask the doctor about that. In time, the three Percocet a day will work if you stick with it. Is there someone who can hand them out to you? I think it's unrealistic to just quit everything, given the type of pain you describe.
Do you have a husband or boyfriend to support you?
Until you can get this hip problem resolved, you need to make some lifestyle changes. You need to have some help at home. Right now you're disabled and if you approach things from that perspective, you'll think of ways to adjust your activities.
Good morning buggie...i read your post and know your fear. i wish i had magic words or a magic wand but the fairy keeps stealing it back lol....so all i can do is offer ya moral support.
I am a chronic pain patient as well...instead of hips mine are knees. I've had three knee surgeries in less than a year. a replacement on right. with a scope to fix torn ligaments after the replacement. and the right one had acl repair. i can relate to each and every step is painful. i know your predicament. i am addicted to oxycontin. same medicine as yours except i was on 40 msg twice a day. and two 15 ir for breakthrough. i stopped meds for three months only roxie end up in surg again in Feb and because i have raised my baseline of pain much doctor moved me up to 2 60mgs a day. and two 15. i gobbled up a months worth of med in ten days. ten days.so i ran out way to early and had to detox and start all over again.
your gonna have withdrawls until you get a refill. that's a given. and we can and will support you. I've done it so many times i should be called detox queen.
You've got some serious thinking a decisions to make none will he easy.
If you keep using meds addiction will follow. it sounds like its already in play. and now you've got to think about baby on board.
There's no easy solution. but i will support you all i can. i will be praying for you. ask me anything ill answer As honestly as i can. and support you....you've got a friend in bama
I am a chronic pain patient as well...instead of hips mine are knees. I've had three knee surgeries in less than a year. a replacement on right. with a scope to fix torn ligaments after the replacement. and the right one had acl repair. i can relate to each and every step is painful. i know your predicament. i am addicted to oxycontin. same medicine as yours except i was on 40 msg twice a day. and two 15 ir for breakthrough. i stopped meds for three months only roxie end up in surg again in Feb and because i have raised my baseline of pain much doctor moved me up to 2 60mgs a day. and two 15. i gobbled up a months worth of med in ten days. ten days.so i ran out way to early and had to detox and start all over again.
your gonna have withdrawls until you get a refill. that's a given. and we can and will support you. I've done it so many times i should be called detox queen.
You've got some serious thinking a decisions to make none will he easy.
If you keep using meds addiction will follow. it sounds like its already in play. and now you've got to think about baby on board.
There's no easy solution. but i will support you all i can. i will be praying for you. ask me anything ill answer As honestly as i can. and support you....you've got a friend in bama
I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers. This has got to be difficult on you and your baby. I know you already have a little one, but is there someone who can help, even for a while each day, so you can get some rest?
Again, I am thinking of you and praying you find some relief. If nothing else, keep posting here and vent. We're here for you and will help any way we can.
Again, I am thinking of you and praying you find some relief. If nothing else, keep posting here and vent. We're here for you and will help any way we can.
Im hoping once the baby is born they can successfully remove the excess bone then i can put all of this behind me...they told me the hip replacement was going to make like wonderful...NOT!! I have counted pills too like twice...dont know why...kinda weird i guess...it doesnt change the way i take them...not sure why i've done it... I just want out of the game...
Thank you for your support...we have tried everything other than pain meds...i cant do PT because it aggitates the excess bone growth in which the cant to surgery on until it stops growing...i have had sooo many injections but because of the bone inhibiting the joint it does nothing for the pinching and disruption of tissue...its been a long 14 months (post-op)...not to mention the year prior to surgey was even worse...i just want my life back...without pills or pain!!
Hi and welcome. I understand. I suffer from chronic pain that I will have the rest of my life. For a long time I was able to take what was prescribed to me and be able to function at work. No, the meds didn't completely eliminate the pain, but made it bearable. The problem is, it started taking more and more meds to get relief of any sort. I started the pill counting and I hated the stress of trying to make it until the next refill. I stopped taking them cold turkey back in November. Quite honestly, it scared me how I was losing control. You are the only one who can make the decision. I am not going to sugar coat it. I have some pretty bad days. With the help of my doctor I do use alternate pain relief methods such as physical and massage therapy, trigger point injections, a home TENS unit and a home traction unit.
You may want to discuss different treatment options with your doctor. A common misconception is that pain meds will alleviate the pain altogether. I am not saying that this is your expectation. I am just sharing my story and thoughts.
I truly wish you all the best and hope I have been of some help.
Please take care and keep posting.
Minn
You may want to discuss different treatment options with your doctor. A common misconception is that pain meds will alleviate the pain altogether. I am not saying that this is your expectation. I am just sharing my story and thoughts.
I truly wish you all the best and hope I have been of some help.
Please take care and keep posting.
Minn
I do ride the edge and its scary...but you know as well as i do when you have absolute legitamate pain...tylenol is a joke. I take it alllll the time and only on the very mild days does it make a difference. I was on 800mg Ibprofin for about 6 months and it was great until it stopped working...they told me that was normal and its not meant for long term use...but addicting pain meds are??? The running out five days early (sometimes less) has been consistant and like i said...i welcome the break...but 1 pill every 4-6 hours doesnt cut it somedays when i have to carry my two year old in and out of stores...put grocerys awsy...clean...i hate depending on pills to feel normal physically...esp when the catch is...they make me far from normal mentally. Its just a vicious cycle and i dont want to fall into it...it terrifies me...walking the line.
HI if you keep taking those pills the way you are you will become addicted to them no if ands or buts about it it just a materof time and that time is differnt for everybody I walked around on ligitimit pain meds for 16 1/2 yrs let me be frank with you your riding on the edge if your already coming up 5 days short it just a mater of time till you get hit with withdrawals I understand your plight but try over the counter stuff first then if that dont work use the oxy but try not to dtay on the oxy round the clock your only setting yourself up for more problems
I wish you all the best good luck with the baby and God bless.......Gnarly
I wish you all the best good luck with the baby and God bless.......Gnarly
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