refill day!!!!

[lasherslaugh]

Does anyone get those "butterflies" in your stomach even when you pick up the phone to call in your new refill? Then the drive to the pharmacy is like a kid on their way to Disneyland? I wont even mention the feeling you get (i get) once the bottle is actually in my little hand.

[PharmGirl75]

Well, regardless of the intention behind lashers original post, it actually did ONE thing for me- made me realize that I *may* just actually be addicted to my Phentermine.
I get giddy every month when my doc says "You've lost another few pounds, good job. What pharmacy was that again that you are using?"
When I leave his office, I hit the pharmacy before his nurse hits "send" on that script... and I for sure have the butterflies! No matter what kind of day I'm having, knowing my good ole' doc is gonna keep me going with the energy pills always puts a spring in my step!
After 6 months, perhaps it's time to decline his generosity...

[FAITHFUL74]

I have read your "other" post and now understand the "first" one. I guess it was me who called you a man, but, then again I just happen to say that alot, so no gender punt intended! Like exmple: Hey man... did you see that? I am a gal too!!!

Anyway, sorry for the rough comment I made I guess your post just sounded like you were enjoying refilling the pills? How else would you take it?

Best of Luck to ya.

[Greatgreebo]

YIKES!!!
Yep, some people were less than kind with their replies (that's okay-they were justified in their mind ) everyone's entitled to an opinion and I don't think they were out of line. Some people were like 'right on' to the post.....once again-their interpretation made good sense to them and they are entitled. Lasher-you 'gave' just as good as you 'got'----Hopefully we all can now shake hands and continue on.
I didn't get butterflies when I used to get my refills. I actually got physically sick (to my stomach) I would start to retch. It was really weird. I don't miss that feeling at all.

Greatgreebo

[wait2long]

most likely...if your an addict, triggers may be a part of your everyday life, may as well get used to it and learn to deal with it NOW....
it wont just "magically" disappear on its own...if thats what we are expecting, we may be in for a shocker at some point...
just a thought...

take care of yourself lasher...your doing just fine hun...stay strong, methadone is the beast of all opiates. you can do this....

[road2recovery]

Please stay with us....I am almost 6 months clean----And i did not take your post in any way bad...but then again that is just me...And i took it as "REMEBER WHEN"
and yes that was me...
I had read enough of your post to know you were trying to taper..

that doesn't matter, just stay with us, as we need you, and you need us...
let this be over, and you don't have to explain yourself anymore

just keep doing the right thing, and that is all that counts.
good luck and god bless
r2r

[Amanda6900]

Im just impressed that there was no verbally bashing or swearing to one another. Nobody is every going to say the right thing all the time.

[cathy5841]

i thought went to bed lol

[Flutterby111]

I'm sorry for calling you a jerk....I realize I reacted based on my OWN feelings....my feelings are still fresh and raw....really, I was mad at myself for getting caught up in the mess I did, and what you posted did get my engine revved up a little....but that's because of my own weakness...sorry, I truly hope the best for you....I never mean any ill will here....I misinterpreted yours.

[lostmarbles]

We hoped you would be back!! im so glad you have put your point across... sometimes its sooooooo needed... I for one and several others are glad you are here!! well done and good luck!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[bmc1976]

I think your post was just very misunderstood. You have to remember that not everyone on here knows your story. I'm not saying that some of the comments should have been said. The one bad thing about forums is it can be hard to get out exactly what we mean without going into great detail. Even still things can be taken the wrong way. The best thing to do is take the advice you need and totally ignore what you don't. I don't take anything negative to heart and just tell myself to look at both sides. Most of the time people mean well, it just doesn't come out that way. Not all the time, but most of the time. It sounds like you have a great plan to overcome your addiction. I feel for you for having the pain and hope you can find something that helps with that.  I myself have been dealing with chronic pain and know how difficult it can be. Best of luck to you!
Brian

[cathy5841]

i sent you a pm and i am so sorry that i was insensitive to your post.  how awful was that?  i am such a caring and nurturing person by  nature that i am really appalled at not responding more compasionately.  and i am really glad you are back.  let me know if i can help you.
cathy

[GoingToMakeIt]

I am so glad you answered. It sounds like you are doing pretty well. I am glad for you.
Every once in a while posts get out of hand. I am sorry that is was yours this time. Look for the good and head for the prize.

[confused456]

Thank you for posting your story and intentions behind the meaning! I hope you have a good evening despite all of this.

[lasherslaugh]

Well, as some of you may know I've been on Methadone (only),. since 1999 and I've tried tapering 2 other times and failed because I walked away when I got down to 11mg. I thought I could handle it, I was wrong. Now I'm on my 3rd. tapper and since I found this site a couple of months ago the tapper has been going better than ever before. You see, before I found this site I had no support at all. I've read some advice on here some people gave out (detox recipes).And not to mention the kindness & support I found here made me feel as if I actually had people who cared about me.You see, I am following a certain recipe I found on this site. It said to soak in baths as much as possible, use aromatherapy soaps, eat well & healthy foods which I have been doing this all, religiously.And on of the recommendations in this recipe was to try to get a prescription of Valium for muscle cramps,anxiety & insomnia. So.I asked the doctor at a family health clinic here in Carson City,NV. & I explained my entire history and current situation with Methadone & that I'm tapering off by myself, and I asked him if he would prescribe 10mg. Diazepam  (generic Valium) and he did. So, to make them last I only take 1/2 tab. each day IF I need it.I also suffer from a slight case of Scoliosis (curvature of the lower lumbar spine) which is extreamely painful every morning and it takes me about 6-7 minutes just to roll over and stand up out of bed.That same doctor offered me some vicodan to help with the pain; can you imagine that?! I turned it down, I feel 200mg of over the counter Motrin works just fine. Now, I have never had a problem (addiction) with Valium. But it helps my anxiety and even my muscle spasms in my lower back because of the Scoliosis, and I can finally leave my house which I couldn't do before from Agorophobia.I am starting to have a life now & see that light at the end of the tunnel. A long time ago I loved going to pick up my refills for vics. that was 20 years ago! However I do feel happy knowing I have Valium to fall back on IF i need it. The first prescription I got was 1 month ago and it was 15 tabs.And I know I'm doing well with my taper and doing it correctly!!! So, if any of you don't understand my post from earlier, All I was trying to say is that I don't miss those days . But when I do and I WILL get another refill I may feel like that again,but only because it's getting me closer to getting clean once & for all!!! Seriously though I didn't think I'd be called a jerk among other choice names & phrases from other people. You see "Flutterby".............   I said other people & their choice phrases, I wouldn't want other people thinking I would ever be that vicious to someone on this site who was only tying to make contact with other people going through maybe the same thing as I,or you. The rest of you all know who you are, I think I'll refer to you as the"All Saints Clique". People like you wont scare me away from this forum, because hypocrites like you make this site seem just ........mean......somebody must get it. Or else we are all in big trouble.Oh, To the one guy who kept calling me a man.................OH,SO VERY WRONG, HA, very wrong. LASHERSLAUGH.  aka jerk, etc.

[opiatehead]

i agree with all you guys .....but however if by chance it was ment to be negitive and to cause bad thoughts to people is that a good thing...ohh i forgot it's a free nation and freedom of speech ...but i do remember refill day hahaha

[Flutterby111]

HOly cow, I missed out on good ole fun here!  Dang family and dinner.....shoot.

[spacecadette]

Hun please keep posting....unfortuneately people often times take things in the wrong way and dont investigate further..(i.e.journals) hence neglecting to understand you better and THAN place a comment.  I personally have never felt the excitement you described in your post  but I encourage you on your journey and apologize....i imagine you must feel pretty awful...whatever stage your at, thinking about quitting, or not sure....keep us updated....remember...we can't please everyon anyhow..

[NautyOne]

with that so well said.......May This Thread Now  


                                                          RIP

[VicUser]

It's good to have friends to laugh with

[lostmarbles]

oH ****.... SORRY i thought everyone knew... considering its a day for airing our laundry LMFAO

[VicUser]

You said you wouldn't tell......LMAO

[NautyOne]

shhhhhhhh you just gave away his dirty little secret.  ......lol.  

[lostmarbles]

i think vic is getting in a twist with all the talk on panties...its his favourite subject!! he is going to slap me now...he thinks he's my dad

[avisg]

are the panties all in a twist LOL