scared to death...

[mommy2be25]

I'm so scared right now... I've messed up really bad! I've called in my own scripts and this time they cancelled it and didn't fill it. I know they will be calling the Dr tomorrow and it will all be over! What will happen to me? What might they do? I'm the mother of a 17month old precious baby boy and he deserves so much more than this! I feel like if I just end it all then it will save him and my family a lot of trauma!

[Cantdothisanymore]

hi - i was at work yesterday and followed your story all day. i am so happy that it is turning out okay for you so far and that you have support. i cannot answer your legal questions but wanted you to know that my heart has gone out to you and i have been sending all my good thoughts your way since you typed your first sentance. i am fighting my own demons at the moment and struggling even with 40+ days clean at the moment so dont feel like i could be much of a help to anyone right now but please know that you are in my thoughts. all these good people here are the most selfless wonderful people - they dont even know us new folk who are trying to fight this fight that most of them have suceeded to win and yet they pour out their hearts to us and help us through the rough spots. i do pray that someday i will be worthy to offer the words of encouragement that they so kindly do but i am not a success story yet and have no magical words to make it better for anyone.  all i have to offer is my love and prayers. i pray for you and your family. please hang in there. i could easily have done what you did to obtain my pills if that route was available to me. i would have taken the chance and dealt with the consequences later as you are doing. we dont think clearly when we think we need that pill. you sound young and smart and i am so glad you did not do something to hurt yourself. i am always here. please add me as a friend and count on me to talk to if you think it would be helpful. unfortunately all i have to offer is frienship and commiseration. wish i had the answers too.

[mommy2be25]

So, does anyone know what might happen to me? I live in Georgia. As long as I get help before they come for me, do you think I can avoid prison time? I can handle jail while I wait to get bailed out, but I don't think I can handle prison time. I can't be away from my son like that. Ive been arrested twice, once right after I turned 18 for theft (this was before I ever started using) and then once for possesion of marajuana with my husband over 6 years ago. So neither time was related to narcotics or anything. What kind of punishment do they normally give out in cases like this?

[dominosarah]

Keep your chin up girl.......You have your families support and will get thru whatever happens.  Keep us posted on what is going on.  We are here to support you anyway we can......sara

[badshadow]

I'm glad to hear you are going into a Rehab Treatment Center.  That is one of the best things you could do.  I did it also, and it really helped my case with the Judge.  I didn't do it just to be manipulative, but I realized that my problem was bad and that I did need help.

I also have a daughter, and I did not want to lose her.  I felt just like you at first when I realized I was probably caught, terrified, but like I said, it was the best thing that could have happened to me because it got me on the road to recovery.

You and your family are in my prayers and I hope things go well for you.

[this_big]

  That is great news. I am so happy for you. Sounds like your head is in alot better place. I really hope all the leagal crap turns out to be a mistake or something. We can hope ...right?:)

    About a "free" detox. Yeah i didnt have so much luck w/ the one in my town .I'll elaborate if you'd like. But i wouldn't expect too much from a free one. I've heard of some that work on a sliding scale that were pretty good. There nothing like that here.

  I hope you find what you need and wish you the best of luck. Keep us posted,and you can always come here for support.:)

[avisg]

First thing i would do is call a lawyer  besides your family. I would not talk to anyone else  other then then the lay.I would also get your self into a recovery program right away .I m hoping this is your rock bottom  get help now  hey of the roller coaster you will enjoy life so much more. Good luck keep in touch let us know who things gone