Congratulations on your abstinence time. When did you stop? Which narcotic did you take?
You can do it, and it`s a good thing you are aware of what you do/did to your family.
As I`ve heard, it should get better... First days are always the hardest. You should live day by day, moment by moment, maybe do something to preoccupy yourself whit something you used to do (e.g.spend some time in nature with your husband) to avoid anxiety and depression.
I`m going trough something like that. I`m not addicted, but I`m used to drink almost every night, and now it`s my second day(for the zillion-th time), and if anyone wants me to do something, i become even more depressed and i`m freaking out. I have a need to get my reward - alcohol...
Just stay strong, and here are many ppl with good advises about narcotics who will share their experiences with you soon... and remember: you can do it...