Want to get clean

[newashley2014]

Hi everyone. Im 29 years old and been addicted to pain medicine for 4 years.  The past year its gotten worse. I used to take 4 Lortab 7.5 a day and my tolerance has built I'm now taking 10 Lortab or Percoset 10 a day. I told my doctor I wanted help weaning off so she gave me Percoset 10 to take three times a day. I'm already out. It as supposed to lest me until I see her this Wednesday. I just took my last Lortab 10 and I'm out completely. I need to just cold turkey it because I have no control. I have support but its so hard. Physically its tough and mentally it wears me out. Any suggestions? I'm not working now and stay home with my 4.5 year old daughter so no time to be pill sick mentally or emotionally. Thank you.

[newashley2014]

Thank you everyone for the comments. Yes I do want to get clean. I'm determined. I have a friend who was an alcoholic (I've known her for years) and opened up to her. She goes to meetings and has been clean for 3 years. She wants to help me and wants me to go to meetings with her. I'm so scared to do that. I know they wont judge me but I just feel so ashamed of myself for getting to this point in my life with pills. It really makes me sick. I don't know how I lost control. My husband also is support for me. He has to work and we have no help so no one to help me watch her during the day. But like my friend says I need to stay busy so maybe being with her during the day and take her to the park and doing stuff will help me not think about it.

Thank you for all the suggestions. I really appreciate it and this board is a lifesaver. I've been reading alot. My worst time is at night because I cannot sleep at all. I can take Benedryl/ Tylenol PM and nothing helps so thats rough. I'm really tired and I've been having dirreah and hot and cold sweats like crazy. It *****.

[VICourageous]

Hi & Welcome..Well the physical part will be over sooner then the mental.
Start by drinking tons of water to help flush out the poisons. Get some good vit/min and Electrolyte powder and start taking them now. You will find that some vit/min will help you relax as other will be for energy. Like Magnesium, Potassium, Ds, and Calcium are good at night too. Maybe get some Protein powder and I would also make up some meals ahead of time that you can just heat up. You will go through some changes, but just know it is all part of the process. You must have Patience and take things in Baby Steps at first. Get some of that Epsom salt to because the magnesium is so good for drawing out poisons..Just hang tight and do not over think to much because that tape in the Brain will play it back to use just one more for this or that and for any reason..Be Safe and be Strong.
I sure hope you plan on some Aftercare..The detox is the easy part (yes it is hard) but working on staying clean is when it all begins. I wish you the best of luck and may you continue on down this road to freedom and really enjoy Life for what it is worth.
Bless

[clean_in_ks]

Hi there and welcome to the forum~

Hopefully your forum name will actually "BE" you soon.....and way before 2014 is over!

I too found I could not taper......I understand.
You say you have support......does that mean there is someone that could assist you for a few days with your daughter?

If I were in your shoes, I would read and read and read on this forum.....read all the tips, all the mistakes, all the suggestions.  It will help you A LOT.

Down at the bottom of this page is our version of the Thomas Recipe (it is a reposted version with no benzo in the recipe).  It's under "Most Viewed Health Pages".  Also, I found the article "Amino Acid Protocol" to be a lot of help, too.  Having clean sheets, all cotton jammies, clean towels, some easy foods to fix, and some supplies laid in will help.

Be sure to keep posting...ask all the questions you need to.....it helps us if you can continue to post on your same thread throughout the day.....we can follow you better that way.

Best wishes.....you can do THIS!!

[ywf27]

I'm sorry for your situation and I'm sure your daughter will need you but there is Noway to break free without being sick for a while. Its easier to use than it is to detox and we as addicts are most terrified of the detox. There are things like the Thomas recipe that you can try and if you continue to post here you will get a lot of good advice and support to walk you through. Best of luck in whatever you decide.