Day 8 of slow Tramadol Taper and I CAN do this

[kksmama]

Today is day 8 of my tramadol taper. After my 4+ yr addiction taking up to 30 tablets daily! Last week I started taking only 8 tablets daily and even tho I had some aches and pains and decreased energy, ive stuck with it! Today is the first day im cutting down to 6 per day. So far so good. Still super achey but my MIND is much stronger than my body and as long as my mind is strong I will force my body to follow! I still have about 100 tabs to use to taper but I don't think ill need them. I never wouldve thought that I wouldve been strong enough to stick to a taper when I had a bottle full of pills sittin around but its amazing what years of disgust and frustration can do for your will power! I got alot of people on here that were certain that I wouldnt be able to do this alone and im SO grateful for that! Surprisingly I think that has been a key element in my mental strength and determination in taking my life back BY MYSELF! Its still a fight and I will ALWAYS be an addict! I have been all of my adult life BUT this is the beginning of my first real recovery! I have no craving to even take another evil ultram! My frequent history of seizures is the only reason I continue to taper instead of flushing all this **** down the toilet right now! I kno im probably tapering faster than I should considering my lomg history of use and high dosage but im doing it in a way that my body is seems to be alright with considering what im putting it thru. Thank u everyone that gave me support in my fight and I look forward to being in a position SOON that I can be helpful to people that are in my same condition and mind set. This place is full of angels! Even tho I dont post much, reading everyone elses posts has been a huge help to me. I look forward to the day that im completely free from this drug and I can look my family in the eyes again without feeling like a liar, a fake and a phony. I know that day is right around the corner for me and nothing will keep me from it. Already just the anxiety and worry of constantly counting pills and chasing pills making sure I have enough to make it til my next hook up has been lifted and just that in itself takes such a weight from me! God is good and life will be again soon! Thank u all and lets continue this fight together! Xoxoxo Brandy

[keek36]

You can do it I have been on for 12 solid years and 2 years on and off before that. I have never taken that much but I have easily doubled the max dose. Please take it slow. If you try to get down too fast you could trip yourself up. My doctor has been taking me down only a quarter of a pill a month. We did start at a quarter pill a week then every 2weeks but the lower I get the slower she schedules the taper. I am down to 6.5 and its been months. So please if you need to go to see a doctor if you can. Many of them are now finally realizing how rough this drug is to WD from and will help you safely come off. Then you can focus on support for the psychological part of the addiction.

[kksmama]

Thank u so much and congratulations on YOUR new sobriety! I kno its hard to face this alone but seems as tho u, like me, are not in a position to go to rehab or anything like that and thats ok! We just have to push eachother and remind ourselves of the gift we will be giving not only ourselves but our children by getting and staying clean! Its always been hard for me to stay clean thru all the years and all the times ive quit different substances but this time just feels different! Im so tired and disgusted with the life ive been living that even tho this whole taper and withdrawal process is gonna suck im just ready to get MY life back! Im tired of being a slave to pills! Thanks for your support and ive been in the exact position u are in many times so if theres anything I can help with please dont hesitate!  Xoxoxo Brandy

[perfectliar]

I just wanted to wish you luck! I have been trying to rid myself of my pills alone as well. This site helps a lot and I also read the posts from other people. Unfortunately I have not stayed clean the whole time, mainly because I'm doing this alone. Some days I feel stronger because I'm doing it alone and other days I just feel alone. It's a double edged sword I guess. Really the key is focus and a positive attitude, which it seems you have both. Good job on coming this far and keep it up! Don't let anything get you down :)

[kksmama]

Thank u so much! Tho its not 8 days clean its a start! I will get there! This time! Ive been an addict between one drug or another all of my adult life aside from when I was pregnant with my daughter and up until she was about 2 yrs old and im tired! Im gettin too old for this ****! My body cant handle anymore! Im killing myself every day! Thank you so much for the encouragement! It truly means the world to me xoxo

[kksmama]

Thank you so much for your wonderful words pf encouragement! Today indeed was a bit more difficult. I actually did have the urge to take more pills BUT I fought that urge and I won! Every time I feel close to breaking my taper I start reading posts here and especially this one that I wrote. I felt so strong writing this and I refuse to bow out until I see this thru! Im literally amazed at myself going 9 daysand not cheating my taper. I couldve NEVER done that before! Trust me ive tried! Ive got my eyes on the prize and even tho I kno its gonna get a whole lot worse bebefore it gets better, I actually kinda look forward to the "worse" part. I cant wait til im down low enough to jump off and be in full withdrawal! Then I will REALLLLLY feel like im on my way. As long as im taking pills no matter how few I feel like im losing and I wanna win! I deserve to win! My kids deserve this win! So thank u so much!  Xoxo

[Amandag78]

Hey there, congratulations on day 8 : )

[Sonrissa]

Hi Brandy, congrats on your successful taper, thus far. You seem to have a good plan and a great attitude.  That will help carry you through this. I'm happy that your mind is strong and that you are not having cravings to take more. Just remember that that may not always be the case. Make sure that you do have a plan in place to deal with situations where you may have intense cravings, and when you mind gets weak. I've been through a taper myself, and I know of the ups and downs tapering can be.  Take care, and I'm rooting for you! You can do this. Stay strong and focused. All the best!