OMG... Will it end soon????

[CHIL_LAX]

Hi all, ive been reading everyone's story the last 2 days. And I'll say that it's been a huge help trying to reach out.
I'm trying to deal with my horrible wd!!
I was prescribed Percocet 5-325's back in 2000 after  gallbladder taken out. Between 2002-04 I wouldn't go looking for them, and then I met my love of my life. I retired from crappy food business in 03. Moved to another state with him and started my life, so I thought. From then on I had injured my back so badly I was getting injections every 6 weeks, for years! And that's when the percs 10-650 came in.. From 2004 or 2005 till now I became addicted to theses damn things... My disability was so bad I had considered surgery but all my Drs said I don't recommend it at all.. Also I never heard 1 person that had any kind of back surgery was successful.
13 years later, I'm still alive. How I don't know...
I also worked in the food industry for over 32 years and I have so many spine, sciatic nerve issues it *****!
But last Sat was the straw. I always ran out of percocets every month. I'm sick of it, sick of being mean, stressed, giving myself more pain that ever.  I had to stop. My friend always sent me Vicodin when I run out. One addict leading another. . OMG what was I thinking all Those years? That's just it, I was so addicted to them I didn't realize.
So now I'm done- 10-650 brand names will never b in my possession again. They can't. I won't let it. But if I can quit smoking after 17 years 7 years ago I can do this. I also was taking soma, xanx, blood pressure and 2 others.  I really don't want to see another damn pill ever again! I'll have this discussion with my dr in a few weeks, he doesn't know. How I did it after all those years was my love for myself and family..(well not feelin the live for myself) I had to do something!!! So I researched like crazy, I already knew what I was in for, ***** but gave to. I read a great post on the many websites, and it really made sense. Treat your symptoms, flu- thera flu- calm, B-6, vitamins, sleepy time by tynol. It helped but I'm still pouring sweat, I'm freezing, I snap, at 1st I couldn't even walk. The 1st day I cryef on my nan all day. He drew me a bath and stayed with me. OMG it was hell, hell like I never felt. And it's now 6 days, hec, I don't even know what day it was today.... One things for sure, I can't ever see another Percocet again, my scripts are due and I can get them, I can't.... I was going to send my man and have him burn the narcotic ones,  it really *****.
One things for sure, these blogs are so helpful and is b really lost without them!!
Ok I can't type anymore. All I know is I feel line hell...

[CHIL_LAX]

I'm still going peeps! I  No cravings, NOTTA! So I will keep going for sure ! I feel like a different person.. Reality check! I just had no idea how carried away I got! I'm glad I realized because this is a much better life to live!!! I just have to find a way to cope with the pain. I hope my Dr will have a narcotic free method because its the only way I'm going!! I hope all if you are doing great! Day by Day.. It's a PC of cake for me!

[CHIL_LAX]

Thanks digger1976 and everyone else's support! I'm doing great!!!! Once in a while I get this pain in the a*** hot rush that just makes you sit down, weird. No cravings at all! I refuse to give in and I hope all of you are sticking to it! It's like a life style change, if I lost 140pds in 2007-2008 I can do this! Keep BUSY BUSY!!!!!!!! Going for a ride on my Harley!!!! )))

[Ann2497]

You did a great job getting off the pills.  Keep up the hard work.

How are you feeling today?  Did you get those boxes unpacked?  :)

[digger1976]

Your so right keep a busy mind helps so much, proud of you on all you have achieved thus far, keep up the amazing work and good luck in your new surroundings my friend! Way to go, ;)

[CHIL_LAX]

! I'm so over it!!! The key to success is a very strong willed person.  I am lucky to be one on them! Feel strong, be strong and you will over come it!!! I'm telling you, it works!! Just keep going!!!!!

[CHIL_LAX]

Oh yay I'm so much better!!!!! One thing about me, I can conqueror anything! I'm a pretty strong  person. After moving from east coast to west, towed our Harley out with my precious Papillons, my HB bought a beautiful house, I'm feeling good!!! I have no desire or nagging wants for those disquieting pills!!! Key is fellow friends you have to stay busy! And now that I can move good it's time to unpack, get things done!!!!! Keep going peeps!!' I know I am!! N

[HappyDays2Come]

Yay sounds like you're doing great!! You're well on your way:). Just remember that for the next month you'll experience many peaks and valleys and that recovery does not mean a steady incline in feeling better. Stay patient as your body and mind heals and stay around with us :)!

[CHIL_LAX]

Thank you all you! It really matters!!! This is day 7 and I'm feeling better. My legs and arms can only do so far... You would think the Dr would ask how I really am after all the years of filling the scripts.. What the hec r they thinking?? It's nuts!!! I have been doing some of the Thomas...I have high blood pressure so I can't use bath salts but I am taking bubble baths.. Why is the body so banged up? I feel like I got run over... One thing is 4 sure, I'm lucky to have cannibis! If it wasn't for that I'd b a real mess!! It's legal where I live so I'm really lucky. But for all you just starting it really does get better! And day by day is getting better. I eat mostly raw veggies and nuts anyway...it helps the detox big time and I make fresh lemonade for the flush.. Also the sleepy time's really work! I've been sleeping like a baby every night!!!

[Wildewoman]

Hi Chill ~

I am on hour 43 of being clean. Not sure how I'll get through the next few days. Post here a lot - and I will be here for you.

[HappyDays2Come]

Hi and congrats on 6 days (or is is 7 now ? :)! You're doing great and I promise that the physical w/ds should be easing up very soon!! Have you been taking epsom salt baths? Those will help. Also be sure to take L-Tyrosine and magnesium (look up the Thomas Recipe...it really helped me so much physically). Also, as bad as this sounds to you right now, go for a walk. I know that sounds painful but you'll feel so much better if you do!

I'm so impressed that you've made this big decision to get clean! You're in the right place and you'll find so much support on here. Have you thought about calling your pharmacy and having them flag you? That's a sure way to not have access to pills. Also, it's time to be honest with your doctor and tell him no more pills. You really need to cut off your sources because as the physical pain eases the mental kicks in and you will use if you have access to do so.

I'm cheering for you! Keep posting on here and letting us know how you're doing!!

[ariley13]

Hi there! Great job on your clean days! I know that at first they are very hard earned. You should be turning a corner here with the physical stuff very soon. Hang in there! It does get better. Then it's a mental battle. The best advice I can give you is to cancel those scripts! No matter how strong you are and how done you are with the pills, there will come a weak moment. They will call you name and you will probably cave. Cutting our sources is very important. I am glad to hear that you plan on being honest with your doctor. If you are serious about quitting, then there's no need for back up plans, right? I hope that you start to feel better soon. Please stick around and keep us updated on how things are going with you. Best of luck to you! Take care of yourself!

[kkcopacetic]

I can definately relate to your story.....one true thing about wdraws....they have a beginning, a middle, and they do end eventually so hang in there....k