thinking about going cold turkey off of hydro this weekend

[gottaBstrong]

I have been taking hydro or lortab for about a year now recreationally. I am up to 90-100mg per day. I sometimes will even snort some morphine if I am low on lortab supply. I went to a doctor the other day for help and he prescribed me colonodine. I was hoping this would help with the withdrawals and I could get started that day, but when i took the colonodine is started to hallucinate and hear voices in my head. I got really scared and decided I could not take this med. My doctor also prescribed me to zoloft, which I started today at 50 mg. I am seriously dreading the thought of quitting hydro cold turkey, but also am furious with myself that I ever got on them in the first place. I am in my last year of college and have a heavy load this semester. My excuse has been that I do not have time to be sick and get off of the pills...but I feel completely helpless on them now and know it is do or die, now or never. I have a fall break monday and tuesday so I wanted to start my detox on friday since I will have the two extra days. I know how I feel when I wake up in the morning without the hydros just for a few hours and I am in a panic, vomiting, diarrhea, cold sweats--until i finally get some, so I know this is going to be terrible. Has anyone out there been through this?  Is there any advice you can give me? I need to be strong and I need to do this but it is hard doing it on your own. PLease help me,

[ariley13]

Sounds like you are doing great. When that anxiety hits it helps to throw on some good music or watch some funny movies. Pretty much just anything that keeps your mind off of things. Going for walks helped me a lot too. It even helps to promote sleep and can ease some of the restless leg stuff. Hang in there and keep moving forward. You will get through this.

[vicki595]

Hi there- I just wanted to offer some support, as well. I'm proud of you for getting rid of those ten pills...that's huge and should reassure you of your commitment...

The Xanax will help; just go easy with it but you should be as comfy as possible for the next few days.  And good for you that you have such a great boyfriend!

[mommymarieme]

Yeah so proud of you!!! I know you can do this! Yes the emotional is hard and no fun especially if you are not used to crying lol. That is good that physically you are doing ok right now. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing and If you need any support we are here girlie!! ;)

[toothfairie]

Just hang in there girl....day 1 and onto the next and the next....just get thru the next hour, next min.....take deep breaths when you get stressed.....and take LOTS of hot baths with epsom salts....they do wonders for calming your mind and your restlessness....i was taking 3-4 a day in the beginning....hang in there my MS friend!  you can do this!!  you can always message me if you have questions or just need some support ok?  ;))  

[gottaBstrong]

Thanks for all the posts this morning. I woke up at about 8:00 and was feeling so much anxiety because I usually take my fist pill when I first wake up whether it be 4 am or if I can manage to sleep till 9 am ..but i took a 0.5 mg Xanax to calm me down and I went back to sleep until just a little while ago. I have now taken 2 ibuprofen and and immodium. I feel very emotional, but physically I am okay for now.

[WantARealLife85]

Hello and welcome to community! Thanks for the invite...
Now real quick, STOP and breathe the anticipation of doing what your GOING to do is one of worst parts, just dive in head first with your protein drinks and vitamins and tummy stuff and you WILL do it, us n ur boyfriend will be there every step of the way if you need any type of support or just to talk stick close to this site it is a GODSEND and the people here are angels.... Don't psych yourself out you wouldn't be here if you didn't want this and that's HUGE! You sound like you truly want this and that's a huge part, as Katy Perry says YOU ARE A CHAMPION AND WE CANT WAIT TO HEAR YOU ROAR! You got the eye of the tiger don't worry bout that I can tell from readin your posts so keep that WANT and NEED to get clean throughout this process its your life so take it back from the beast scratchin for more than you could ever supply at your back and CUT IT OFF!   I consider the detox process thee single worst/best experience of my life and it changes you, in a good way you will be stronger and believe in yourself like you never knew you will believe you van lift mountains AND U WILL! The strength to do this is huge and the pride you WILL have will show to all around you and you will be HIGH ON LIFE! Sounds great right? Well you got that in near future just stay strong like I can tell you are... As Eminem says "IM NOT AFRAID!" So don't be, and as Tom Petty says "I Won't Back Down" so DONT! Make music part of your religion get what you need to ease situation, eat, drink even if you don't want to and well JUST DO IT YOU GOT THIS MY FRIEND!.... WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!  YOU WILL STAND A LIL TALLER!
If you need anything msg me or post, we are all here and want this for you like you do yourself.... NEVER GIVE IN OR UP! NEVER!  :-)    gooood luck!