Hi Angel & Welcome,
I hope you come back and talk with us. If you open up a bit you will find members who can relate to your situation and give you advise and support. I saw where you are taking diet pills, talk about that too. That sounds like a problem for you right now too.
Hang in there.
How long have you been sober? It's ok to worry about relapsing. It just means you care enough to stay clean. The more you think about it though, the more stress you're going to cause yourself. As long as you're far away from it and people who do it, the best and only thing you can do is work your way to forgetting all about it. It takes a long time, I won't lie, but it's never as difficult as it seems in the moment. Let me know if you want to talk about it.
You've been clean for a bit. Is something triggering this? Lonliness? Boredom? If I can ask,what is your disability?
Are you taking any other meds?
I don't have meth experience but I know addiction..
i fear the same thing for my fiance bc i know although hes been clean five yrs, the guilt and remorse can become unbearable and trigger him into relapse...its a horrible thing to be running away from a monster and end up in its horrific embrace again.. But i say find something stronger that you live for..become addicted to love and life and helping others to not have to battle this monster..ever. And remind yourself that meth will not erase your pain, it will worsen your regret afterward and bring out a person that you are not and do not ever want to become again..remind yourself that youve come this far down the road, look at the landscape around you and focus on the rising sun, do not turn around and walk back into night... Erica <3
I am 8 years clean from meth. There are many reasons why if you have stopped already, you want to stay off of it. To this day my teeth are in terrible shape. STD's are spread with this drug in scary numbers and not just from sex. Also, you do permanent damage to your mind and body. After stopping meth, you can actually tell a difference between how you were and how you are.
Also, something that I know from personal experience with all the people I did meth with, is people convince themselves that if they switch ways they do it (say from shooting to snorting or snorting to orally consuming it) that it is safer. Although certain ways are more dangerous than others, all ways are dangerous and lead to emotional, physical, mental, and if you are a believer, spiritual damage.
You feel such a rush of happiness and almost like you are immortal and invincible from meth, but it is all fake, it's all an illusion. The brain makes chemicals that make us feel happy, meth replaces those and so when you stop, besides the 24-72 hours of hell (if your not sleeping) you feel depression and are not able feel happy from things that made you happy before. Also, people fool themselves into thinking that they are more "intelligent" or "creative" when they do it, this too is an illusion.
Feel free to message me.
My disabilities are Bi-polar 1, ptsd, severe anxiety and boarderline personality disorder...
Guess we have more than one thing in common.
Sadly, sometimes doctors give us medications that don't work for our problems, other times they give us medications we become addicted to because we are either in extreme pain or mentally unstable. I declined the riddilin and lithium they wanted to give me. Growing up in my late teens I would take drugs that seemed to help in some ways even though they were actually making things worse for numerous reasons.
Talking and venting actually helps a lot. I also suggest to people to see therapists about problems before doctors that can prescribe medications. I went to a therapist about my anxiety and was able to beat it without medications.
Post as often as you need to.
I am a recovering crack ,meth ,pill and booze addict clean today thank god. there are sighs for us to watch for Hungry ,Angrey,Lonely ,Tired...HALT if one of these are popping up take care of it and I knwo for myself this helps me . do you have support?, are you dealing with underlying issues with ppl who can help? Are you eating and drinking lots of water? quitting drugs leaves a vast emptiness that needs to be filled up with healthy stuff...If you have any questions please feel free to ask okay,You are not alone j34
Do you think long term narcotic use no matter the whys...can cause toothe decay? Thanks
yes i do. sorry it took me so long to get back to you.. i dint knwo you had asked me a question...the reason i do is that we dont flosse, brush ,eat ,drink enough water,so our gums become unheatlthy, then our teeth go...does this help ? How are you doing anyways.Message me if you would like to talk k...
Yes they do, I abused meth for 5 years, and I have gotten all my teeth pulled in the back and got new ones put in because they were all broken and dead! <3 Jess
I used meth but I was ocd about my teeth, I didn't wanna lose them so i constantly brushed and flossed and chewed gum
Checking in...hope all is well...
Thanks, things are much better, hope all is well with you
I cant say that I have been through what you have, but I have learnt that, if you worry (in your case)about a relapse, then you constantly thinking about it and that's all on your mind. You have to focus on the good things in life, think positively about other things. Every time you think of the drug, stop yourself, think a happy thought and put all your energy into it. You know my past and that is what got me through it. Good luck xxx