yikes

[kellygirll]

today first REAL craving having all kinds of thought and s**t running thru my head now i knew this day would come was actually waiting for it and here it is in all its glory i will not relapse just staying with the feeling and thats it i feel safe i  dont want to go thru all the guilt and having to tell hubby sponsor and everyone else that i messed up so I'm not going to do it its just a feeling now i called my sponsor and another girl from my NA meeting left message thought if i posted on here it would lessen you know getting it out...........and it did well i will be ok just had to share

[VICourageous]

Hang in girl!!
It takes a min or two to think of using and a min or two to re-direct yourself.
The things that makes me crave is Boredom, Loneliness or NOT having that old fake energy to get my work done..I still have to take some baby steps now & then even after a couple of yrs. The BIG thing is to try to stay busy, which it sounds like you do. Wishing you all the best and I know it is a hard road to hold but it does get a bit better. Support, Support & more Support!!
Bless

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl  greate to see you great to see you clean....cravings are very real to addicts it is part of the obsessive thoughts we get...the real key here is to work your program call your sponce and hit as many meeting as you can  your among N/A friends and it safe to share your doing great  I wish I could tell you it will go away they dont  but you dont have to act on them  with time they do get farther and farther inbetwin and if you keep working the progam you will lose the desire to use  im proud of you for not using this is the time all your hard working with the progam works out keep in mind we all are faced with the same dission   will I use today or stay clean  your making the right dession...................Gnarly

[spider6]

Great tude Kelly!  Love what Tony said! hugs hope xo

[kellygirll]

meegy =) hello doll i went to go to a meeting friday night cuz I'm adding more and man it wasn't there I'm working all weekend day and night then going away to my friends beach house (no partying i promise its not like that this time) and coming home christmas eve that night no home meeting =( gotta find one for friday I'm not happy with going without a meeting that long but i will be ok i won't be around anyone who triggers me to use how are you sista!! and i will not give up i am worth so much more i do not want to use at times i may think i do but i truly DONT not like all the other times when i dint give a crap if i did  i really dont want to life is SO much better without drugs i can see that now its not something i need nor want in my life at all love you girl

[meegWpaw]

hey kel, this is the second time in a few days i have read about you thinking about using, right?  or am i mistaken?  checkity check yourself girl!  how many meetings are you going to a week?  because i would go More.  just my .02.  love ya girl!  you're doing great ... you got TIME, now so don't give it up!!!  xo

[Cricketk92]

Hey Kelly!  Thoughts are just that!  Thoughts!  Sounds like you did the right thing with them!!!!  I had a wicked craving the other day but after obsessing about it I surrounded myself with people that make me happy!!!  Hang in there my friend!  Keep talking and posting!!!

[weaver71]

Don't let your feelings determine your actions, let your actions determine how you feel. Way to go reaching out, you are getting the hang of this thing!

[newoutlook12]

Its not the thoughts you have its the actions that follow. Its good to get it out and talk about it, did something happen that made you feel like this? Remember play it out in your head, you have come so far a couple pills isn't worth messing all of that up and it would just leave you wanting more. Play out in your head all the bad things that would happen from just taking one. It would just start your addiction again and it wouldn't take long for your whole life to be a mess again, so not worth it! You are doing so great please don't mess that up!