I think I am an alcoholic and about 11 weeks pregnant.

[lvelaz]

Ok. So I know theres probably going to be a lot of judgment on this topic but I just dont know what to do. Im 20 years old and pregnant with my 2nd child. The thing is I had my last period back in December but have had 3 partners including the father of my first child. His the only one whose actually ejaculated inside me which makes me belive he is the father of this baby. I was ferile during Jan. 07 through Jan. 14 which was the time we were having sex and he was constantly ejaculating inside me. So from what I belive I am only 12 weeks pregnant. The thing is this pregnancy feels a lot different from my first one. I dont feel pregnant at all. In fact I feel great. But the thing is since the father of my firstborn knows about my other partner .. he believes this baby isnt his and makes me feel bad .. Every .. Single .. Day. I have resorted to drinking every day and getting drunk to cope with all the stress. But at the end of the day all I can think about is this unborn child. I also do smoke occasionally but only when my friends or family offer it to me. I dont know what to do. I feel so bad about myself I just wanna die. I want to love this baby just like I did with my firstborn but there is just so much stress. I just cant cope with it. I havent seen a doctor nor would I admit to a doctor that I have been drinking on a daily basis. I just need some advice. I know I should probably see a doctor but I just dont enough courage. What if this baby doesn't have the same father as my firstborn ? I wouldnt want to keep it knowing its from some ******* one night stand. Plus my fiancee who is the father of my firstborn has made if very clear he would leave me and my son in a heartbeat if this baby is not his. Im scared. I feel hopless. Which makes me wanna drink and just forget. Im sorry im not strong. I am strong enough to take care of my infant. Just not strong enough to care for my unborn child. Someone please help. Someone please tell me this isnt this worst thing that can happen to me or my unborn. I need support or advice from someone eho has been through this. Plus I am drunk right now while right this. Please do not judge me. I need help.

[dominosarah]

Please reach out to your doctors about this.  These babies need and deserve their mommas to be healthy.  There is help out there.  Family problems are no reason to drink.  The problems wont go away, they will just intensify for you.  I know it is scary as i have been there.  You are all worth getting your lives in order.  Fetal Alcohol Syndrome (FAS) is real and will affect these babies for life if you dont do something about this.  Do what is right here and reach out for that help~

[zorbie1]

Well there is a paternity test you can do early on but it's expensive and invasive not sure if that's a possibility for you....
Go see a doctor or a clinic. If you are worried about judgement maybe call the local women's shelter and ask for a referral to a sensitive clinic/doc. Talk about your options and discuss the likelihood the baby isn't whos you think it is. Do discuss the drinking they will have resources.
Seek help for the drinking and don't let an ******* drive you to drink.
My primary partner teases me about maybe the baby isn't his (it certainly is) but it's just teasing and I know it, way different than shaming and driving you to drink.

[Melizandy917]

Just seek help , I'm in the same situation just not the diff baby daddy , I drink too I'm 17 weeks pregnant and I can't stop I regret it the next day but will go and have another one ,I'm stressed out over family problems,I'm scared to ask my doc for help