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First time poster.... Uggggggg

I'm a 39 year old male who has been a beer drinker since the age of 20 so almost half my life I've been drinking beer.  In the last 6 years I've been drinking anywhere between 4 and 12 beers a day.... EVERY DAY!  More towards the 12 rather than the 4.  Both my grandpa and my mother died from alcoholism and I fear that I might be next.  I'm well educated as far as the effects of alcohol on the body so I'm not ignorant.... I'm stupid!  I have a lovely wife and 3 kids that mean the world to me.  

I really don't have a question...  I guess I'm just here for a little support.  I have decided to quit (again) and tonight will be the first night without any.  I may drink 1 or 2 just so I can sleep but thats it!  I don't know if I've done any damage to my body yet but I would think that after 19 years that I probably have.  I don't have any physical symptoms but I am a little worried.  I want to quit so bad.  I don't want to go out the same way as my mom and grandpa.  I'm so disgusted with myself and I just want this to all be over.  

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DON'T DRINK ANYTHING!  Not even 1 to 2 beers to help you sleep.  If you want to quit you need to quit COMPLETELY.  I bet you couldn't drink just one.  You know the phrase, "One is too many, two is not enough."  You are an alcoholic and are in need of serious help, rather than trying to quit on your own.  It obviously didn't work the first time you tried to quit.  It's great that you realize it's a big problem but it's one you can't solve on your own.  You may need to go to detox but definitely check out AA and get a sponsor.  Both will help you get through this and onto a clean and sober path.  If you really are disgusted and really don't want to end up like your mom and grandpa then DON'T!  You have the power to quit.  You just need to believe you do.  
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I agree with vm..you need professional help in winning this battle.  You should get rid of any alcohol in your house; beer and hard liquor.  Though I only drink on special occasions and weekends, I still have a hard time saying no when it is readily available to me.  If you don't already, tape a picture of your family on the fridge so you see it everytime you reach for a beer.  Maybe seeing their faces will help you say no.  I wish you the best!  Keep us posted on your progress.    
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I've had 2 beers the last 2 nights with absolutely no desire to have any more.  I drank them about an hour before bed and slept pretty good.  I bought a 6-pack 2 nights ago and after tonight they will have lasted me 3 evenings.  I am only drinking them at night because it was suggested to me by someone to absolutely NOT quit cold turkey because of the dangers of quitting abruptly.  Now I am getting conflicting information.  I don't mind just quitting.....  I really don't I was just under the assumption that this could be somewhat dangerous.  

Thanks for your comments you two.....  Fortunately one of my co-workers is very involved in AA and sponsors people.  I have already talked with him.  :)

Trout
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372900 tn?1315512302
Check out this site.  http://alcoholism.about.com/cs/withdrawal/a/aa000125a.htm  Quitting cold turkey can be dangerous but not for everyone.  That's why I suggested detox.  The people there will be able to help you get through the first few days (which are probably the hardest) and then AA and sponsors will help you stay sober.  I'm so glad you are already looking into AA and a sponsor and I love the idea of putting your families picture on the fridge.  It would be a great motivator for those hard times, when you really feel like you need to drink.  I heard AA is a great program.
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372900 tn?1315512302
I just wanted to check in and see how you're doing.
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just wondering how you are doing. I am in the same boat you are, with the beer anyway. I think about it as soon as i get off work. unfortunately my family pretty much fell apart. probably all my fault. my mom died of yes alcoholism and i have alot of guilt about the way i behaved as a child and treated her. sometimes i wonder if im not trying to punish myself.  

hang in there you are better than i am
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