Wow! u r same age I am and are thinking about blowing in one night what u have acheived in 6 years?Relapse is a process that involves many things crumbling b4 u pick up that first one......much of it between our 2 ears....i love the HALT concept...don't allow self to get too hungry angry lonely or tired.....were u involved in any type of support group?AA?50 some year olds that still go out to the bars and smoke weed haven't grown up...like a bunch of immature 20 some year olds....THINK please about what u r to do if u haven't done it already!i have a saying the short amount of time u spend using is a drop in the bucket compared to the large amount of time u'll kick self in the rear for having gone out and done so!
hello. sounds like you know the answer already. if you haven't had a drink in 6 1/2 years, i'm going to assume it's because it caused you some problems. i've never met anyone (myself included) who had a drinking problem, stopped for a while, and was able to have any better luck after a period of abstinence. the scary part is i can have a drink or two, smoke some weed, or pop a couple of pills without any IMMEDIATE consequences. it may take a day, a week, a month, but i always end up in worse shape than ever before. my mind tells me that i can use/drink and suffer no ill effects, but my thinking has always gotten me in the worst trouble. i've fought my chemical demons over 20 years and have tried to moderate or restrict my use a thousand different ways, but i always return to my drug of choice, which in the end is "more." if i were to smoke a little weed, it might pacify me for a short time, but it won't get me what i really want, which is at first that sense of relaxation and comfort that alcohol used to bring, but later will become the overwhelming desire for unconsciousness. i have to remember where i came from, and where another attempt at chemical peace of mind will eventually take me. there are other people out there who want the same things such as friendship, but don't have to include catching a buzz on the agenda. 12 step (and other) groups of people can be found everywhere these days that like to go out without using anything. i had to make major changes to insure my sobriety as i've spent the better part of my life playing music in places where using/drinking were not only accepted, but encouraged. if i go to a place that serves alcohol, or where i'm likely to encounter other drugs, i make sure i have a good reason, if possible someone with me that knows i'm sober, and a way out if i start thinking about trading my pepsi for jack daniels. only you can decide, but if you are honest with yourself, please consider, "is it worth the risk?" hope this is helpful, take care---gm