How are you doing during the holidays? I am thinking of you.
When is the last time you had a visit with your family MD?And were 100% honest with them?I agree with mombojombo-you do indeed sound like a functioning alcoholic!There is such a thing called the weekend warrior drinker!I used to be one for years,then decided I could drink during the week!To sum it up,I was a miserable failure at social drinking!It sounds like you make TIME for drinking!If AA is not your cup of tea,look into other support groups that you may benefit from......there are many roads to recovery!
I'm glad you are here buddy. You do indeed sound, I'm sorry to say, a functioning alcoholic. Even your non bender drinking which sounds to be a lot of beer every weekend is a lot. Alcoholism is a progressive disease. You'll probably drink more and more and have more frequent episodes of the vodka binges. You may be early stage but you seem to not be able to resist the urge to drink excessively. Discontinuing the benders will help. Anything that moves you toward being more healthy in your life is a good thing. Start there and then maybe you can eliminate the weekend beer eventually as well.
There is online support these days. The AA book to read and work the program on your own? What triggers the bender? Working on your triggers may help. Counseling can be virtual right now too. This is helpful because you can slide it in even if you have a heavy work schedule. Your phone can work to have these sessions in your car out in the parking lot during a break.
Remember that binge drinking can be dangerous. Alcohol poisoning is real and can be fatal. Monitor your drinking. Stop this from happening. Can you do that? Or is it too far gone for that approach?