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Just wanted to check in with you and see how things were going. My situation sadly has not changed. I am drinking earlier and earlier and can't find the courage to stop. Things with my husband are pretty much the same. Even though I drink during the day he does't know because I pace myself so he can't tell when he gets home. Really when I think about it, it doesn't make sense because I am so tired from drinking all day that when he gets home and wants to hang out and drink beer, I am pretty much done an hour or so and I am not even really drunk. Before we would start around five and have a lot of fun together. Why do I like to drink during the day? Maybe it's boredom, maybe I like to hide my problem and keep it to myself. Anyway, anytime you would like to chat let me know. I fell like we are very similar with our struggle to stop.
Mel
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I have bookmarked some nice supportive website links that I found or people send me when researching for my ongoing story that may help. Feel free to send me a pm.

One of them has several links to people's stories. Another is a link to the Big Book. I also have a link to the 12 x 12 (though the font is small. You'll have to zoom in)  The link with the 12 x 12 has a page that describes what to expect if you're nervous about entering an AA meeting.

I also found an interesting forum for recovering alcoholics based off the 12 steps. They have a lot of interesting topics worth reading.

If anyone else here is interested, please don't hesitate to send a pm.

After all I'm just a writer, who finds the disease facinating.  I haven't been tere myself, but that doesn't stop me from reading stories and trying to give my opinions based off what I've read that seem to help other people.
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HI Mel,
I hide my drinking by isolating myself from friends and family. While at work I'm ok but in the evening and on the weekend I drink constantly. I think for me a lot of it is lonlieness and boredom. Which is funny because I keep to myself when I am drinking and drink because I am by myself. I was able to stay sober for 6 months. During that time I spent time with friends, went to the gym and took 2 classes at a local college. That 6 months was the best I've felt in a while. Sadly about 6 weeks ago I found myself in a very stressful situation and to deal with it I started drinking and isolating again. Now that situation is over but I am stuck in my old habits. Yesterday I stayed sober until about 4:30 which is amazing for a weekend. Today my goal is to not drink at all. It is hard to see the horizon when your stuck in a hole. I know if I am going to stay sober I need supportive people around me and something positive to do with my free time. I am planning on enrolling in some more classes this coming semester. The hardest thing for me to do is to talk with anyone about this. It seems especially hard to talk with the people I am closest with. I don't know how to talk with my family or friends about this. I don't want to/can't deal with the disapproving looks and words. I know I shouldn't be doing this and I don't need to feel guilty about it. I just want to be supported in moving beyond this. I know the tendency towards addiction will always be a part of my life. I just want to be supported in dealing with this not treated like I'm a lepper. I thought I would try this web site as a sort of putting my toe in the water before I tried to find a meeting where I live. I hope this all makes sense. Do you have any hobbies?    
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ur situation sadly has not changed for u sadly choose to purchase alcohol and sadly consume large quantities of it!if u think ur husband can't tell how much u drink then he must drink as much as u or more......do u had kids who are witness to this?i hope not!
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I may not be that familiar because I'm just a writer who finds it curious. I just felt like showing my support and glad that you posted an update about yourself, even if it isn't always good news. At least you're brave enough to admit you arte struggling which is good.

I have some helpful links I found when researching. Feel free to pm me if you're interested.
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