Am I Schizophrenic or just anxious?- PLEASE HELP! 19 Male

[Heelzs]

Hello here is a a little back story on my situation I know this is a reacurring post but I cant help but being teriffied of the idea of going crazy, April 2014 after returning from a vacation I smoked weed (I had smoked many times before this ) and when returned home I had a crazy panic attack and thought i was either dying or losing my mind, after multiple doctor visits and pysch visits I was told it was just GAD ( Generalized Anxiety Disorder) I quit pot completely and was put on Cipralex (lexapro) after a couple of horrible months of constant worry that I was going to become schizophrenic I started to feel a little better, gained about 30 pounds which made me kinda upset but my girlfriend at the time helped me threw. After months on Cipralex I weened myself off because I felt that it wasnt really helping. (this was around Jan/Feb 2015) fast forward to May I felt functional like I was about 75% back to myself, worked all summer and had a generally good time, felt pretty good. This September I began my first year of college. I have always been kind of socially anxious but since the begining of school the social anxiety increased alot and I have been very stressed due to the workload which made me feel more anxious, just recently I was partying at a buddies house and after a night of heavy drinking I acidentally smoked a bong, I went into some vertigo state of mind while trying to pass out and ended up throwing up and panicking. Ever since that night my anxiety has been sparked up again like brought back. I have been experiencing a very intense worry that im going to get Schizophrenia due to the depersonalization after that night, all I have been doing lately has been on my phone or iPad googling symptons of Schizo, Shizoid PD, Bi-Polar, and convincing myself that this is going to happen, not to mention that my vision and hearing has been super sensitive lately like my ears have been ringing and I assume that this im going to start hearing voices and my eyesight has been weird like its playing tricks on me Ill get flashes of flight or see something in the corner of my eye and start worrying. Overall I feel as worse as I did a year ago now and its killing me Im so so scared an really need advice.  

[Heelzs]

can i message you?

[Heelzs]

thank you crystal, I have just been so worked up and no sleeping this week and its driving me insane, I haven't been feel like myself :(

[Crystal413]

Lack of sleep is the worst! Hang in there!!

[Heelzs]

Been feeling okay lately.. still kinda jittery, just dont understand the relapse of anxiety after a year

[Crystal413]

I re-read your last post and my comments on a different forum. You never mentioned weed. It is obvious that your body is sensitive to the alcohol and weed as you have already experienced. There are other meds than can help you. It is trial an error. Not all make you gain weight. Everyone responds to meds differently. I am surprised your dr did not give you a anxiety med such as klonipin to help get through this. You wouldn't have to take it forever. When your ready to get off of it you would taper yourself off of it slowly with the help of your dr.
Weed can cause anxiety even though it had previously not. (maybe there was something else in the weed that was not the previous times). One never knows what they are getting. That aside you stated you have already experienced anxiety with weed and the amount of alcohol you drank. I would not forget that again as you already know it makes you worse.
Your anxiety has you worrying about all of the different illnesses you could have. You have already seen many dr's and a psychiatrist who ruled out other things and said you had GAD. Anxiety can create all kinds of things that go through your mind. Look back at my previous responses to you and see if anything I said will help.
I know you need answers and reassurance so I am glad you have posted here and maybe some more people can give you help.


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