Hi, I'm a 17 year old male from The Netherlands.
I've had DP/DR for about 1.5 months now and at first it strongly reduced because of 'Mindfullness meditation' and Harris Harrington's DP/DR cure tips... but lately I've been struggling with a bunch of dark and terrifying thoughts, sometimes I see images flashing in my mind and I also feel like I'm tripping on sounds sometimes... I also feel these split-second trip moments which strongly remind me of my DMT trip (intense fear and weirdness). Over the last year I've done all kinds of drugs: Psychedelics (about 4 different ones), amfetamines (Done this less than psychedelics), lots of weed and alcohol and I also microdosed on LSD more than 8 times. These weird trippy thoughts are scaring the **** out of me and I almost can't explain them they are just too weird... If someone has done DMT just imagine the feeling of the DMT trip (Not fully tripping with visuals only my thoughts are like this) but just for 0.5-2 seconds, sometimes I'm just talking to my mom and all of a sudden I get this trippy feeling and a burst of anxiety going trough me... after this I usually worry the **** out of myself because I'm just too worried this might be Schizophrenia.
Sometimes when It's really bad I close my eyes to meditate and I just can't take it for more then 3 minutes because my mind scares the **** out of me.
Please help me I've been browsing on the web for ages and I can't seem to find anything that resembles these symptoms, most of the symptoms I find are WITHOUT the thought tripping ****.
I hope you guys can reply quick because damn I can't take this **** anymore :(