Yes, this is the hundreth time I ve ranted about my anxiety, and now, I do believe I m at my peak. Out of all the things I ve gotten scared and anxious about, this is the biggest. It s once again about the uncontrollable universe, and it s about what I call "everything". Not just existence, the empty dark void that existed before, and now. Time and numbers doesn t exist in the void, but after constantly thinking it, I actually believe it s a part of time, and not an end In fact, it makes me have terrible thoughts about if the universe is just a little speck that gets smaller as the dark void CONTINUES!! It makes me think BEYOND infinity, and in fact, infinity doesn t even apply! Seriously, I have thought SO FAR, I even think the dark void will turn white.
Basically, if you guys don t understand what I m saying, I ll put it to you shortly. I m trying to comprehend how the dark void can be endless. It makes me feel like I m trapped in this universe, and it s incredibly to hard to get it to get out of my head. This has been going since January, and I almost feel like there is no escape from these thoughts, considering that I can t even tell myself it s not true.