Anxiety waxing and waning

[BRnyc78]

Hey Forum,
I've written here before.  My anxiety symptoms have come and gone, usually depending on the stressful situations I'm dealing with.  The intensity of the symptoms change as well.  Currently, i'm feeling a lot of muscle tightness, light-headedness, headaches and random jabbing pains pins and needles.
I've already been checked a million times..or it seems like.  I've had all the blood tests, MRI's EEG's and more.  My neurologist told me that I basically don't have to see him again, unless I want to talk about my ANXIETY symptoms...but he did say that he give me a complete bill of good health neurologically.  My regular doctor says i don't need to take anymore blood tests and that I'm healthy.  
So I'm trying to solidify all of this in my mind.

I'm on a small dosage of Xanax, which helps take the edge off.  What i find most frustrating is that coming and going of my physical symptoms.  This currrent wave of symptoms is coming on the heel of me finding out that a close friend's girlfriend's cancer has come back again.  It instantly made me feel the physical symptoms.  

I'm still dealing with my emotions over my mother's death, almost 3 years ago, from a sudden heart attack.  

So I guess my question is...when do the waves stop?  I know this is the way anxiety works.  It comes in waves.  You have your good times and your bad.  So, this is my bad wave.  It's been about 9 months since I started having these symptoms.  I'm just tired of it all.  I'm doing the work (therapy, yoga, journaling, regular doctor check ups) and everyone says they see me making progress and that I don't have to question my health anymore.  It's hard though...you know..when you're deep in it.

I'm really looking to hear some success stories.  I just want to know that all this work is worth something...and that the light at the end of the tunnel isn't as far as it might seem.

Hope is the greatest gift i can get right now.
Thanks

[silverberg]

if your doctor says, "good bill of health" then your clean, now let it go, it may be hard, but ask yourself are you a Doctor, if your not, you can't make a diagnosis, this has helped me, as for success, you are a success, I've seen people who have no clue as to whats going on with them, but from your writing you do, do not be so hard on yourself!

[Caveman24]

The only success story I think will satisfy you will be your own and it will come when you let it. The only thing I know to tell you is trust your doctors that you are fine and except the fact that as humans we get weird pains and sensations that are unexplainable. I am learnng to do this and I have to tell you the past few days have been alot better than the past few weeks.