I kind of agree with you about the klonopin, but then, at 18, one would hope you can get a handle of this through therapy and not get stuck on medication. When it's necessary it's necessary, but you just got this problem. I'd try to find a cognitive therapist who will give you specific things to work on rather than indefinite talk therapy, again given your young age. Others on here might disagree, I know we all have different views of medication. Good luck whatever you try.
I'm assuming you haven't seen any type of specialist regarding this and if that's the case, you need to do so. Therapy can be very beneficial with the right type of therapist and it sounds like you're spinning your wheels with your current one! I think a more thorough examination is needed as well, blood tests don't say it all. I'm not big on medication for one so young, but it sounds like you're barely able to function. As helpful as therapy is, it can be a lengthy process and medication would help you get thru this time. See a psychiatrist for an evaluation and go from there, he will be able to help you. I wish you all the best.
If you have further testing and nothing is wrong, it wouldn't hurt going on a medication. Even a low dose of zoloft, lexapro, whatever may help. Maybe also find a different therapist in the meantime and eventually maybe you can go off the medication after you have sorted through your anxiety. You have to do what you have to do to function. Let us know how it goes!
Today I feel fine, I know it shouldn't be anything neurologically serious, but yesterday it was bad thats why I wrote the above post. Its just that my anxiety has a way of controlling me and should I say, torturing me unmercifully, for a certain amount of time like a week or so. But then It will stop one day, like today, and be ok for about 2 weeks and then come back for a vengeance! I'm going to cognitive therapy and I believe I have a good therapist who was trying her best to try to help me control it without medication. I myself was hesitant to start medication for the risk of addiction and dependence. But for my best interest, the doctor put me on 1 mg klonopin but I only take 1/2 and find relief at night. Now that today I awoke with mild panic (lol mild, panic is not mild haha) and the ability to think more clearly I find no need to take my pill today. But as for the depression its still there, its not a self loathing depression but more apathy, not giving a damn, and just going through the motions. I still give a hollow smile every once in a while. But under it all theres my true self wanting to be free and optimistic. I want to gain my confidence back and be warm and not feel cold and callous.
I wonder if this is just a test of my strength by god himself, I don't want to fail him for I know god made man and his reason.
Religion wasn't very big for me when I grew up, but now I feel I need it more than ever.
IdkI didn't mean for this to turn into a very long post...
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One thing about cognitive therapy, if you suffer from depression as well as anxiety, they have to work on the depression first so you have the proper attitude to tackle the anxiety. I didn't know this, and when I did CBT, it didn't take, and only in the last couple of years have I read that CBT very often doesn't work because people who have depression and anxiety need to work on the depression first. Good luck whatever you try.
Yeah, my therapist wants to work on my depression before we go further. I also stopped taking my Klonopin because it made my depression feel worse. Don't need things to get even worse.