Hi all! I was wondering if anyone might have a suggestion as to what could be my problem!!! Back in December, I had the worst experience of my life...I hope I never experience that again! I started having unusual anxiety attacks...it seemed like it would hit me in the evening....I started fearing loss of control, not being able to cope with life, fearing the future, thinking bad things were destined for me....etc. Really scary stuff, and my mind would race between these thoughts, and I would get this taste in my mouth...I thought of it as the tast of fear, and then I would panic more, and pace, and feel like my mind was losing control. It was terrifying. My husband was my rock...and still is! He would always talk to me, and do a lot of reassuring with me, and then it seemed to dwindle away. It would then appear the next evening...and then after about of week of this...I woke up with it, and pretty much kept that awful feeling from then on until I went to the emergency room. I pretty much paced that whole day...thought I was losing my mind...could not take care of my precious children...my husband took off work for a week...and then my mother stayed with me too. I couldn't eat, and starting having dry heaves and bad stomach churning...the doctor's gave me meds for ulcers and then zoloft. I started at 50mg and felt better within about 3 weeks....the longest 3 weeks of my life!!! Then around my period, I relapsed, which was only one week later. I then went to my doctor and he up'd my dose to 100mg. That was back in Feb. I've noticed that for the most part, I'm okay, but everytime my period comes...I have that awful anxiety...and even though I have been through this, I still feel like I'm not going to make it. I do a lot of praying, and I fear having bad thoughts....I had bad thoughts when I first developed this...suicide...although, I didn't plan anything, I just had the thought of it. I know I will never do anything to hurt myself or another human being...I'm like the most caring, sympathetic person out there...I love people, and would do anything for anyone...but when this anxiety hits...I start fearing having those thoughts. It's so exhausting going through this. Is anyone out there like this? Does anyone else out there understand this...or am I all alone in this matter, and am just a freak or something. I was fine until December....I don't get it. Although, I am so thankful to God that I am not like that anymore...I still am not back to my old self.