It all began about 10 months ago when I smoked weed. Despite that I had smoked weed before, this time I was alone in my bedroom and my senses became out of sync. I was watching a show but when I turned my head my vision was still fixed until a few seconds later it moved to look at the new spot I was looking at. I thought of it as kind of like a snow globe where when what I was looking at was actually what I was seeing was when the snow was fallen to the bottom, but when I moved my head it shook the snow and as the snow fell to the bottom my vision would fix on what I actually was looking at. It seemed to move almost slow motion and kind of actually reminded me of lsd. So other than my vision and movement out of sync, the sound of the show seemed to be loud and constant despite me walking around my room. I eventually started to freak out thinking I was dying and I ran to my sisters room telling her to go into to my room with the hope she would find my dying body. However, I was not dying but taken to the doctor. I got a urine test to see if my weed had been laced but it only showed marijuana. Since then I hadn't had another episode until I smoked again nearly six months later. I was with a friend this time holding a cold drink and telling a story. It seemed since I was just rambling on my mind kind of just went into oblivion while I sub consciously continued on with the story although I didn't realize I had until I regathering myself and was able to comprehend that I was having an episode and my vision was out of sync. The hand on the beverage seemed to be very cold as if I were more sensitive to it, or I was just so zoned out I hadn't realized how long I've been holding it and when I went into gust oblivion I wasn't able to realize my hand gradually getting colder. This time I just went home and took a nap. However, after that episode I hadn't felt the same. Similar to the first episode I felt a strange, unsettling kind of uneasiness. Like when I am going to sleep I kind of feel like I am sinking or when I have my arm under my pillow it feels like my arm is really far away. But after first episode the uneasy feeling went away after about a month but after the second episode it stayed until now. Which brings me to me stop smoking. But one day, about 2 months ago I drank a glass of wine. Later that day I was at a basketball game and my friend was telling me a story. I was just staring at his face and was just thinking about the color of his eyes and shape of his face when I fell into an episode. This was about 4 hours after drinking the glass of wine. My vision was off and I started freaking out because it hadn't happened to me in a while. I went to the bathroom and sat for a second and I felt better, but when I went back into the gym it happened again. I'm not sure if it's because it was so loud and crazy in there or what. The next day I got and episode AGAIN even though I hadn't smoked or drank. I was really concerned so I told my dad about it. I ended up just spending the day with him and little episodes just came on and off. I remember I was telling him a story and my mind did the thing where I subconsciously keep talking but my mind is just oblivious. I'm thinking it's what happens when I either sit and concentrate or just rambling. The next day I went to work and sure enough I had an episode of oblivion. I went home and told my dad because I was freaking out. He set up an appointment with a drug specialist. When I went a week later she drew blood and kept asking me questions if my friends were offering me candy as if I were taking lsd. I hadn't taken any candy or anything and my blood work came out clean. That was about 2 months ago and I hadn't had am episode really since expect when I went to karaoke it happened very briefly. Which also leads me to think it may happened at loud crazy places like the game. Karaoke was almost a month ago but yesterday I got a really bad headache that lasted hours and I couldn't fall asleep. I think me not being able to sleep was mainly because of the uneasiness I consistently feel. When I was lying down last night I had that unease and also pangs of fear. I turned the light off in my room and it was very dark except the little light from out side that was leaking through my curtains but when I looked at my curtains it seemed darkness was kind of engulfing it the more I stared. Eventually I went downstairs to sleep on the couch because I didn't like the feeling in my room. While I was lying there it looked like a shadow was moving when I wasn't looking at it, only when it was in the corner of my eye. I'm not sure if any of this hasn't to do with the cold I've had these past couple of days, maybe the sinus congestion is part of my headache. But I am very concerned and afraid and I really would like to know what is wrong
I am 17