Depersonalization?

[Z_Mortimer]

I posted a while ago about possible OCD.. At the risk of sounding like a hypercondriac I'm fairly certain i've some symptoms connected to depersonalization? I never really thought much about it, but these days things are getting very difficult because of this. I've always been a bit ditzy, or a day dreamer, but I feel most days the only time i'm happy is when i'm i this world i've created in my head like an alternate reality.

Everything I do, even as I'm typing this, I feel as though I'm a puppet, that someone else is pulling the strings. It's been like this a while. And I'm scared of the real world I hate it but I know I've to fix this if i'm to actually get anywhere in real life. Is this just some "phase" or do I just need to get my **** together and get over it?

I have no concept of time or organisation. Everything is left to the last minute. I feel as though everything is moving in slow motion, yet minutes, sometimes hours pass. I freak out in lab and make stupid mistakes (currently studying science in college). I looked up the wikipedia and it seems i have these symptoms.

[Amy4891]

I experienced depersonalization with an anxiety attack the other night. Man was it weird. Maybe you should talk to your mental health care provider about it if it becomes chronic and interferes with your everyday life. I have only experienced  derealization once and depersonalization once. I couldn't imagine experiencing it on a daily basis, because man is it weird, lol. When I had derealization I started wondering if everything was a figment of my imagination, my house, my entire life, the people I was around...nothing seemed real. When I experienced depersonalization I felt like I was looking through someone elses eyes, I felt detached from my body, and my body was actually kind of numb to me. I can see if it happened often enough how it could interfere with daily life and functioning.

[Gulfstream2]

You know when you finally get out into the real world (well you always have since birth obviously) you have limitless options to get your life started and can actually go and do things, and really make progress.

Evasion, trying to avoid the real world does nothing but cause problems with the folks who do it, frankly I don't know why because that's where you are able to really get started. Being a dreamer, to an extent is a very good thing, you are able to recognize your potential and put it to test but don't live in your own world because you will never get anywhere - except just dreaming. That isn't living. If you "live in your head" too much, things can get problematic and difficult. Life requires action, and dreaming all the time is not action. Dreaming is great motivation, but it is truly, just something that goes on in our brains, but if it motivates you to go out and accomplish something, than I say all the power to you.

"Nature, in order to be commanded, must be obeyed."

That quote was from Francis Bacon, a philosopher. You have to accept the real world if you wish to go somewhere in your life, just as you have to accept the undeniable fact that if you want to go to Hawaii, you are going to have to drive to the airport and fly out there and it costs money. Frankly to me, I can find more happiness out there in the world than just in my own thoughts, don't get me wrong, what goes on in our heads is important but when it begins to impede on your ability to live your life, then it is time for a reform.

If you want actual happiness, you have to go out and get it, that's what everyone at one point or another realizes, not because they want to, but because it is a fact. You can dream for all your life, but when you open your eyes, you will see you haven't gone anywhere. Think of it this way: If you break your wrist, what really works? What has efficacy in healing it? hinking something like "Heal, heal, heal, heal....Heal, heal, heal..."? Or going to a hospital and getting a cast put on it? Surely, thinking that mantra over and over may help to put you at ease mentally, but what is really causing the healing? The cast does.

Nobody else pulls the strings, you do everything in your own life like anyone else does. It may feel like that maybe, but the truth is, you have control over your own life. :-)

[Life360_Dave]

It makes not difference to the car when it runs out of gas, its only important to the driver.

[Z_Mortimer]

Thank you for your reply. I feel a bit ridiculous saying it out loud, it's so much easier typing it. Thanks again for taking the time, it is much appreciated.

[Life360_Dave]

Im not a doctor and not sure about OCD but as a another human being i can relate to how your feel. I believe that our body and mind are 2 different systems. The body is a system that acts on its own as our heart beats natually.
It is a vehicle much like a car and we have to service it and maintain it and most important we are the driver. When i look out the windshield i am driving to a planed location. I feel the same about my body and in a sense am looking through my eyes or other senses to a planned location in much the same way. Our body has the mechnism to produce senses as with taste and smell, but our mind is the thing that acknowledges it.
Concepts of time is in fact only a concept and putting things off till the last minuite as for things that have little interest. If you won the lottery, chances are you would drive as fast as you can to cash in the ticket.
Your young and the world can be a very confusing place with all the other people around and all the openions. Even looking up into space and trying to understand the grand scale of things can leave one beathless and awe struck.
As we live our lives comes understanding and wisdom and adding a deep spirtual conviction will also help in making sense of who we are and our place in the universe.
Getting some professonal guidance and therepy will help you a great deal in understanding what you are all about.