That was one of the most comforting things I've read. People know us, and how we are, shes literally the love of my life. It seems right now, the thoughts wont stop chattering in my head... That put me at ease though reading what you said. Do you think its kind of a mix of cold feet and anxiety of going back? A friend of mine who has ptsd told me thats what it sounds like. I know shes my everything, and just to see her face on yim/skype or whatever puts a smile on face. We don't have kids but are trying... and that too puts the biggest smile on my face. It proves that the thoughts that are running are irrational and dumb, I wish I could shut them up, but its harder than said. When I first got home it didn't even feel like I was there, I didn't care if I saw my family if was by myself or anything... I was happy when I saw her, it felt different and I told her that as-well but as we are soldiers we know its only a matter of time till we have to go where duty calls us to go.. I'm very open with her. I've told her everything in which is going on with me, shes fighting this with me... because she knows its not me... But pushes like this help... I've only been married for a week and I'm already heading back, and its going to be months till I have her back in my arms for good. (as fruity as it sounds- its the truth)
I am sorry you are going through this right now. I have been through two deployments with my wife and I know it is hard. In fact, I deployed to Afghanistan two months after we were married in 2002, and it was very hard. First of all, you are under extreme amounts of stress right now and it will affect most things including relationships. For me, it took me awhile to get reconnected with myself let alone with my spouse. I too had doubts, but I also realize now that I became emotionally numb just to deal with the stress of being deployed.
In my experience, you are going to have doubts about yor relationship but I also believe once you redeploy back to home station you will readjust and love her just as much as you did before your wedding. Just don't forget to help yourself get readjusted when you get back. The military has gotten much better with providing counseling and other support services to help with things exactly like this. Also, if you need to talk don't hesitate to email me.