Why am I feeling this kind of guilt about my past?

[potapioca]

Hi, I've been with my girlfriend for nearly 1 year and we love each other and see a future but for the past 2 weeks i've been hurting her by feeling forced to tell her every little thing about my past, concerning my ex girlfriends, what I did with them etc.. even crushes or girls that I found attractive. I feel like to tell her every insignificant thing even if I know i'm hurting her. Why am I doing this ? :(

P.s not sure if it's the right forum to post this, but I feel like going mad.

[potapioca]

Wow that really does help the advices :O She once told me to write everything I have to tell her down, so that I dont go everyday and tell her again and again.
Youre right :/ But I really really hope that she will understand and that its not over yet :x
Thank you man! :)

[anxiety860]

The way stopped completely was by having one sit down conversation. Saying I love you and I feel guilty about my past and I want to be open then lay it all out.  After that its finished. All you have to do is be faithful to her. It's human nature to find other
People attractive besides the one you love. What matters is that you stick by the one you love and leave the past In the past. If you keep looking back you'll miss out on the present and being happy. Trust me I had to learn that the hard way

[potapioca]

Oh god, thank you for your response. Yes, I think I had anxiety when I had to repeat one highschool class, but I never felt like that with any other exs , maybe because there was nothing serious!
The thing is, i'm telling her EVERYTHING, like I just did about 15 minutes ago! I don't know what's happening. to me, i'm hurting her and i'm being hurt in return :/ I cry like a lot because I know how bad she feels when hearing these things. But i'm telling. her even my past crushes and now i'm feeling like if I really deserve her , she pushed me away when told her those things. again , she says it's okay, but I know she's not.. :(
I talked to her about it yesterday and you are right, everything returned back to normal and she said to me that she will forget it and move on but man I just think again and recall every past moments and just go and tell her -.- How can I stop. completely ? :(

[anxiety860]

Oh and anxiety can bring on guilt

[anxiety860]

Man oh man I have been in your shoes! Before I met my current girlfriend (5 years together now) I had a history with different girls. For some reason I felt I had to confesse to her every single sexual relation I had before her. And if I kept something from her I would have anxiety about it.  Can I ask if you have a history with anxiety?  The brain is a tricky thing. Why I felt like I had to tell her? I guess I wanted to be honest. Why it would give me anxiety when I thought about it and didnt tell her? I guess I felt bad. What helped me was sitting down having one talk about it and once that talk was over it was in the past. But this was all about sexual relations. Crushes pfffff no big deal I've had "crushes" since the 2nd grade. Anyways I ask if you have anxiety because I feel like it was my anxiety that made me have to tell her.