I get extreme anxiety of coming into contact with an HIV infected syringe while conducting daily life business, e.g., grocery shopping, work, etc. I have the fear I will somehow step on an abandoned needle somewhere and get infected with the virus. My fear has now transitioned down to my girlfriend and new born baby as well. I get anxiety when my girlfriend wears open toed sandals, etc. I now find myself taking photos of the ground, which is normal debris, i.e., cups, paper, sticks, trash, etc, but I have fear of it being a needle. The funny thing is, most of the time, I never review the photos; I guess just knowing I have them brings me relief. Before, I was even using a picker to pick things up off the ground, which I would store in the trunk of my car; however, I've pretty much gotten past that. It has come to the point that my condition is impacting my relationship. I'm in the process of scheduling an appointment to talk with someone - just waiting on my insurance to be verified. I really hope I can move past this - I need to. Is there any hope for me? Also, I do not want to take medication. I appreciate any sort of input, I'm desperate for any/all help.
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