Figured My Anxiety Out

[edgyboy]

I had a long conversation last night with my wife about anxiety. I dicussed with her everything on my mind. My fears, some of my thoughts and how I feel from day to day. It was a real relief letting it out.

During our conversation, I mentioned to her what I thought was one of the sources to my anxiety, my fear of death or dying. When I was 11 years old, I remember reading a comic book about war. One of the captions had two soldiers shooting at one another. I thought to myself that one, or both, would die.

I began thinking about death and basically told myself that someday I would die. This was my very first panic attack. I remember screaming for my mother. When she got to me I just kept repeating that I didnt want to die. I can still remember the symptoms of feeling trapped and lost while this was happening.

The loss of my Father a year ago has brought up some old demons. Anyway, I've been sleeping well and getting the rest I need to battle this demon. havent had panic in my sleep for a week but still have some anxiety,thoughts of panic and derealization. Is this normal?

[edgyboy]

I saw my grandmother die when I was 9 years old. So, death has always had an impact on me. I think my first panic attack came after the death of my GM.

I made an appointment today with a therapist. I think it is time to learn some coping skills being my improvement has been slow. But, it is improvement.

[kka264]

To both of you...my panic has in fact subsided however the effects still linger including derealisation.  However I just accept it and move on.  Yesterday I had a horrible pain in my chest--the panic in me was--heartattack---immediately I just said out loud--probably gas--let it go.  Sometimes in the gym I get those anxious feelings.  However I just try to work through it.  I figured out the source of my anxiety--death of my grandmother amongst other incidents.  But there is always some fear that it returns--I call my disorder-shadow land (lion king) lol.  Sometimes it is there--it comes but I refuse to remain there.  I refuse to let this disorder direct my life--I understand that my body reacts to stress like this--therefore I have to be more aware of my stress levels-I am a bit nervous about managing this when I return to school--but I can't let this ruin my life.

[edgyboy]

I just made an appointment with a therapist. I think it is time I do so. I've always handled this on my own to an extent but I am older now and losing my Father had more of an impact on me than I thought.

I am better than I was a couple of weeks ago. Hell, I couldnt even sleep.

The cramps in your stomach, I get. for me it almost like an ache from panic or nerves. I also get a warm nervous feeling in my arms. Its an overworked nervous system that needs some rest.

[Beautiful_Diaster]

As I am new to this I dont really know how to answer your question. But we are basically in the same boat. My anxiety has subsided a great bit but I still suffer from a few physical symptoms. That is the exact same question I had for you. Today its sharp cramp like pains in my stomach. It feels like it might be gas but it is in the liver/gallbladder region. So im scared it might be something worse. It says on Anxiety Centre that symptoms do tend to linger...you should check it out. Sorry I wasnt of any help to you and hope you will be just fine.

Shan