Hello...
I have been through alot in the last 4 months and my anxiety came back. I can handle the symptoms, but it is the thoughts that scare the hell out of me. In church one day I had a lady say..... "oh my God, you have been through so much, I'm glad your so strong because some people wpuld kill themselves".... Nice.... So then a few days later I was like, "omg.. what if she's right and I break and kill myself" and so it began. The stupid obesssive thought. What if I kill myself? I cant look at the word suicide..l. or hear of it.. read antidepressant ads with depressive symptoms and the whole "suicide thing" I have seen 2 therapist and they could careless I have this thought.. They said I am using it as a distraction from "life" and confronting what I need to. I am NOT capapble of this or NOR want too... I just want the damn thought all together to disappear but I have been told that is OPPOSITE of what I need to do with it... except it as a SYMPTOM of anxiety.... it is just a AWFUL FEAR. Anyone else ever had this irrational fear?
Thank you.... honeydew