NEED HELP, I THINK IM GOING CRAZY, UNREAL!!

[kanadian]

I Really need help a.s.a.p I'm scared
I'm 20 years old Male

ok soo about 2 moths ago I started noticing that something is wrong I had a episode where I felt very dizzy, unreal, detached, scared,  like a bad trip off weed! I do not use drugs or drink,  I have tried weed before but had bad trips and did not like the feeling!  so the dizzyness went away then I noticed I stayed in the house a lot but mentally I was ok thinking, then about a month and a half ago i slept at a friends house, when i woke up i noticed my eye lids were very heavy, about 1pm we left to go driving I was in the back seat, they where talking in the front then all of a sudden everything felt diiffrernt, I didnt know where I was everything felt weird my heart started racing, really dizzy and what ever they said was tripping me out. I just wanted to get home, then when I got home i slept and it has been down hill from there, I have not left my house for about 2 months now, I feel weird unreal scared!! like i will do something and i wont remember what i was doing, i think i'm going crazy. I cant get myself out of my head, I'm seeing flashes of light every minute, its scaring me, I feel soo unreal, the anxiety and panic does not happen no more, now its all in my head, I have bags under my eyes now and i lost 10 pounds, its like i have 24-7 deja-vu scariest feeling ever. I use the internet alottt too search what i might have and it scares me what i come across. and also my dreams have become so weird. i cant tell in the morning when i wake up if i'm dreaming or not, i cry now, i'm so use to feeling like this that i don't even panic anymore, only when i get a flash back feeling of how i use to be, talking to my friends on the phone don't feel the same I'm losing it... please help me!!!! I'm convinced i have a mental illness that's forming.

[John23a]

i cant believe the above post!!! anyways
im 20 and suffering from the same thing. its called derealization/depersonalization. do a little research and you will know that this is what you have. how do you cure it? its simple. stop focusing on it. DP/DR is the way your brain protects you. By making you feel unreal. I have the same thing you have and have been like you a lot. It passes as soon as you stop focusing on it. Mine is still here after 2 years but not as severe as before. I can function. But i was like you for 3-4 months. As soon as i knew what it was it started getting better. You are not going crazy. I know exactly what you feel. You look at your hands and you feel it doesnt belong to your body. You go out and you feel like your life is a movie. Don't worry.

[shaysmed911]

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[AshleeAnnP]

Lizzy, I first realised I had depression when I was 14. Everyone would just scoff when I asked for help "oh it's just your hormones" "stop being so ungrateful" "get over it, we all have problems" etc. yeah, sure, this advice really helped. It got worse the older I got, to the point where everything I did I had to take a long time to think about it, or just do it on impulse, never giving myself the chance to think about it. I was married at 18 to a very sweet guy who only was just seeing what the depression did to me, had a baby literally nine months after and then was diagnosed with pre and post natal depression. I had another baby and I thought I was doing ok until both sides of the family sat me down to explain that I needed help. I felt betrayed and hurt by them all so I divorced my husband and left the kids to his care and started drinking and smoking (only cigarettes, never weed or other drugs) till the point I couldn't take it anymore and overdosed on my anti depressants. I was admitted to the local mental health clinic after I finally left the hospital for two months until they felt I was doing better (I wasn't) and then I tried again by cutting. I never did get to the hospital that time since it wasn't that bad the cuts my ex husband just bandaged me up and stayed with me for a couple days while I tried to figure things out. That was a year ago. Now I'm living with my best friend who understands how bad depression can be and do you think she would let me sit here stewing on the past for a minute? Lol nope if I even look like I'm starting to daze off into space she grabs me, pulls me up and says things like "hey, think its time we painted the house!" Or "let's go for a drive." I found this site because I've been getting very strong feelings of unreal ness and weirdly just as strong senses of déjà vu about things I've never seen before and found your post. So I just wanted to make sure you are ok, and if you want to email me or anything I am here to talk if you need me. Xoxoxo chin up sweetie I know it hurts so bad but you are definitely not alone in this.

[lizzy6335]

I'm lizzy 13  year old girl, and am having problems thinking, I have depression, anxiety and many other emotion problems I'm lost and scared because nobody believes me nobody!!!

[gywen]

if you get this.... ok bottom line you are an advanced being. Stop. I don't know where you are at the moment... still fluxing at the moment. you are here at the moment. I hope this    reaches you in time. love. remember love. not what you've been taught here.

[alsky]

stay away from the weed.  It will only complicate matters.     Try to exercize,  deep breathing.  Calming teas.   yoga.  

[tracy111111]

iv been feeling the very same.... not only am i living in a dream but the day before and even few hours ago feels like a dream.. anxiety comes with depresion and doc treat this first whoch reduces anxiety so that your not depersonlized....... im struggling with a relaps but i know you will come out of your dream because i did after i was last ill in 2003........ please dont stay in your house. please go out every day even just to the shop or 5 minit walk and back........ and i know its the same feeling of unreality when u go out but u gotto keep doing it and dont get fustrated if u still feel in a dream after going out 5,6,7,8,9 times... eventually u will not be in a dream no more....... i hate the feeling but i made an appiontment for a eye test todat, didnt need one but it gave me the motivation to go i walked there and back 15 minits each way and eye test took 10 minits...  I HATED IT.. i was so out of reality... but i did it.. and the more i do the easyer it woll get... i came out of my dream and i will again......also right a dairy and deep breath through you belly tensing all your muscles in your body one by one... to be relaxed everytime before u go sleep... please let me no how u get on

tracy

[DreamNaut]

You may want to get some bloodwork done as well, a simple thyroid issue can affect your brain as well.

[DreamNaut]

I definitely would stay away from the weed.. playing with fire.. can bring out a whole host of mental symptoms.

[strakur]

I have had an episode like the one you have described last morning. It was horrible. I woke up from a sleepless night and I could not feel my body at all. I have been suffering from anxiety issues since I was 16, so I know what anxiety is, and I've learnt how to control them, yet this was different. I could move every single bit of myself and yet not feel it "being there".
I walked around the house and then my mind suffered like a HUGE panic attack. I still think these are not normal panic attacks. There's nothing triggering them, and they feel very physical/neurological. I have had panic attacks before and this is not it.
I just curled up on the floor repeating that "I wanted to see a doctor and get sedated" and after 20 or so minutes, it went away.
I went to the ER anyway,  since my body was still numb and I felt like ****. I've been having the sensation of not feeling my arms all throughout the day, however panic attacks only last 10 to 20 minutes, a few hours in the worst cases.

THING IS, EVERY TIME I GET THESE WEIRD SENSATIONS MY WHITE CELLS GO UP.
Yes. There's something wrong with my body. Could it be anxiety caused? Maybe, but the "strange" feeling is not only anxiety. There's something happening inside of me causing my white cells to go from 6000 to 9000 and then to 16000.
I was ordered to stay in hospital if my white cells didn't come doww, like 3 months ago, but after some wide spectrum antibiotics the doctor said "meh, you're fine now. Get an appointment with infectology to see what has been bothering your body"
My mistake was to feel fine and move out to Sweden for a couple of months, since now I am experiencing the same issues all over again.

So please, check with a doctor. Take different tests and if you don't feel it's just your head, then don't settle for anxiety.

As crazy as it may sound, sometimes I think there is some conspiracy around doctors to let people die or test drugs in us. Yes, incompetent doctors had led me to lose my mind sometimes, and not the other way around.



I really hope it's nothing and you get better. I really hope I also get better too.

[sgately11]

Yep, sounds like classic DP/DR. If it makes you feel any better this typically happens if it is going to happen late teens to early twenties, so you were right on time for your body. Don't focus on it, when your in a fight or flight situation your mind slows down and reality distorts, its a horrendous feeling that happens right before a panic attack, and I believe causes the attack to be worse. Also the more you research and focus the stronger the DP/DR becomes, almost like you are feeding a hungry feeling. Your probably tired, burnt out from the worry, and this drastic change in your life, be calm and know that millions of us go through the same exact feelings and worry that you do, and some of us have been working through this our whole lives.

I always recommend a quick physical and MRI just to make sure all is right up there but according to your description it sounds EXACTLY like classic DP/DR with a first episode of Panic Attack. Know a few things. This is not dangerous even thought it may feel that way, you will want to research every disease in the world which is a normal response of trying to figure out why you feel so bad, and the more you concentrate on this the longer it will take to come out of your bubble of panic, but you will come out of it.

Also, as you and some posters have noticed, marijuana is not a friend of us panic sufferers, it tweaks our minds.

Good Luck.

[danielreu]

I have been smoking marijuana since the summer, not every day but sometimes a few times a week. Through all this, it had never affected me in any significant way and I had always returned back to normal a few hours later. A few days ago, Monday December 13 to be exact, I smoked what must have been an abnormaly large amount of marijuana, got very high and ended up experiencing a very bad trip. It was a horrible experience but thankfully it was over within a few hours. Ever since then though, my mind has never felt the same and after researching online, I've come to the conclusion that I seem to have this depersonalization thing. It is two days later now and there is still no change. I often feel very depressed, bored with everything and obsessed and preoccupied with thinking about how different and changed my mind is now from before I smoked. Could you please advise me in this matter? Is there anything I can do to make me go back to the way I was before? I've done exercise, gone out, interacted with people, basically all things which I could think of and which I saw people advise on here, but no change yet. If there is something specific which you could advise me to do, that would be great as well as just to give me moral support. Thank you. My email is ***@****

[nursegirl6572]

I agree that this sounds like classic depersonalization/derealization. I've suffered with both of these, and what you described in your post is EXACTLY what they feel like.  They are a common side effect of severe anxiety and panic.  Also, what you described sounded like you were having panic attacks to start with, which would make sense that the DR/DP would then occur.

If you haven't ruled out a medical cause, its always wise to do so first, but if everything checks out okay, it is time to start addressing the anxiety issues. You already are basically "housebound" as a result of your episodes, which is highly indicative of agoraphobia, another common effect of anxiety/panic.  The sooner you start addressing this, the sooner you can back to your life as you know it.  You are not alone, there are many many many people who suffer with these kind of symptoms every day.

Do a search on DP/DR, just reading about it will give you peace of mind that if indeed, that is what you're dealing with, it is a real side effect of anxiety, and it is totally harmless, even though it can be very frightening.

[r9c]

Hi,yes wat u mentioned could be from Derealization/depersonalization due to day in day out of your own awarness of ur body sensations,its nothing harmful,like john23a mentioned its a way of ur own body safety mechanicsm of shutting down ur emotions because your mind cant take it any longer.

[John23a]

im also 20 and live in toronto...if u want to talk to someone message me here so i can send you my emaill