I feel like I'm losing it?

[sarah4876]

I feel like I'm starting to lose it?

sarah4856sarah4856 an hour ago 1 Reply
I am starting to lose it and have a metal breakdown because I am so over this and scared. I try my best to tell myself its just anxiety but I just can't seem to convince myself because my symptoms are getting worse. Today is particularly bad and I need some reassurance.
All day I have been getting sharp shooting pains in my head which makes me feel like I have a brain tumour, and today has also been really bad for my derealisation I feel like everything is not real and it makes me feel so disconnected and I'm scared because i feel like I'm going to lose control or go mad or that I have psychosis or schizophrenia. I also am feeling so lightheaded and fatigued I cannot concentrate on anything at all, This is not good!! because I have 5 exams on at the moment which I need to get good marks on otherwise I wont get into university.
I also have random phrases or song lyrics repeating around in my head constantly and I cant think of anything else, and I am having trouble with finding words, like I cant think of what Im trying to say, and i feel like i have lost some of my peripheral vision and my vision is blurry also. I also feel like I'm forcing myself to be normal and I don't feel like myself at all. These symptoms are not helping because of course all these symptoms I have mentioned are symptoms of a brain tumour.
It also doesn't help that my Mum and Dad are always angry and disappointed in me, because they say things like "people are actually sick and dying in hospital and yours is fake and all in your head so harden up and get over it" and they just expect it to go away, they also said they won't take me to the doctor again ( I went once because i felt like I couldn't breathe) and they also said if I want to go to a psychologist I have to pay for it myself, which I cant because I have no job. And I mean, I totally see where they are coming from and I agree and I am trying my best to beat this but my physical are still here!! I feel like just crawling into bed and I honestly can be bothered with school, and getting worse!! please help..

[Paxiled]

I don't know if this is just a bad period of your life or you're putting too much stress on yourself.  You definitely sound insecure, but there's no way anyone on here knows you well enough to know who you really are.  But if you have a mental illness, even if it's anxiety, why would your parents think of it any differently than if you had pneumonia?  Show this post and the answers you get to your parents -- if you're accurately reporting what they're like, they've missed the message that is very very old now that mental problems are just as much an illness needing treatment as any other, and if that's what this is, it gets worse the longer you don't do anything to cut it off.  I think a psychologist would be a fine idea.