Debating on finally telling my mom.

[yumighoul]

Hi! I'm currently a young girl and highschool, and I'm scared I have anxiety (also depression but right now I'm going to talk about the anxiety).
Okay, so I have a lot of reasons to think this, and it's not just because I'm constantly nervous or "shy". I honestly am so terrified to just leave my bedroom when my olde brother or mom have people over, even if I've known hat person for a while, and know that they're nice people, I still get scared.
I also recently just quit my job (which I had for a day, and only worked one shift that was five hours long). Everyone there was so supportive and I even had a close friend there guiding me, but for some reason when I came home I just broke down into a panic attack and I was unable to go back there. That happened about three weeks ago, and for some reason I can't stand going near there. Since my brother and my mom both work there, I'll have to go over there every once in a while to pick up or drop one of them off.
Besides that, I'm also always paranoid in school. I'm constantly over thinking events that could happen (which never do) and I only ever think for the worse. I'm scared of making new friends, but at the same time I'm scared that no one is going to want to be my friend.
I have this constant yes and no type of thing going on in my head, everything that I'm scared of contradict each other I guess.
I have horrible fears of public speaking, and sometimes speaking at all. If I don't know someone, I can't hold a normal conversation all that well.
There's probably a lot more , but right now that's all I could think of.
Please let me know if this is anxiety (or if it's something else) and if it's worth mentioning to my mom do I can get some help of some sort, I don't want to worry my mom over nothing.
Thank you!

[RubyWitch]

Good luck, Toots! Know you have our support, OK?

[yumighoul]

Thank you guys for your responses, I really appreciate it. I'll try and talk about this with my mom, and hope all goes well. If I have anymore questions I'll post more so till then ttyl!

[RubyWitch]

I agree 100% with Paxiled that you should talk with your mom about this! Keeping this locked up inside is only going to increase your anxiety and deepen your depression. Yes, this probably WILL worry your mom, but she loves you and is going to do whatever she can to help you. It is very thoughtful of you to be concerned about your mothers feelings, but she is an adult and can handle it. Speaking as a mother myself, it would break my heart to know my child was going through something like this alone. Please talk to her now.

Paxiled's question about something happening in your past was a VERY important question! More important than you may know.

While you may believe you've gotten over the bullying from your younger school days, it's entirely possible, and very probable, that this is at the root of your anxiety and depression now. I'd be willing to bet you didn't tell your mom about the bullying either.

Also as Paxiled wisely said, since this is interfering with your life to the point that you sat at your computer searching the Net for help, tells both of us that not only should you talk with your mom, but to discuss with her the idea that professional help would be of tremendous help for you.

If you need to talk, Paxiled or I will always be here for you.
Stay strong
RubyWitch  

[yumighoul]

I'm not really sure, I used to be bullied a bit in middle school and elementary school, but I'm pretty sure I'm all over that now.

[Paxiled]

Mention it to your Mom.  That's what she's there for.  If it's interfering with your life this much it might be time to talk to a professional about it, so yes, talk to your Mom.  But also think, anything dramatic happen in the last few years that might have triggered a deep insecurity in you?