Please just someone give me an answer.

[notmymojo2]

I have been living with ptsd and anxiety for 4 years. 3 of which I have been completely fine and had no problems. I got my ptsd from a bad ectacy roll. So drugs. I'm 20 years old now and my girlfriends broke up with me 3 months ago. I decided out of drunken carelessness to try it again. Same exact experience. Freaked out had a panic attack didn't feel right didn't feel like myself in my body. Now my anxiety is worse than it was before, depersonalized, nothing seems real. Drinking even scares me sometimes now. I have Xanax and those are a life savor, they do give me some sort of relief. I don't take them everyday, only when I can't function. I just need to know is this my life now? Is this my reality? It feels so much stronger than it was when I was 16. It feels so much more real. I don't know if I'll be able to come out of it, does anyone have any advice or any way of telling me if I'm going to be okay? Or if anyone has gone thru a similar experience?

[helpmeplease1122]

" I just need to know is this my life now? Is this my reality? It feels so much stronger than it was when I was 16. It feels so much more real. I don't know if I'll be able to come out of it, does anyone have any advice or any way of telling me if I'm going to be okay? Or if anyone has gone thru a similar experience?"


These words are how I feel at this current moment. It is hard but we have to have hope that somehow we will get better. I am considering therapy and perhaps meds & a change in routine.

[Gabriel L]

I feel like this, too, the last year. My problem due to excessive physical training (long distance running) combined with years of excessive sexual stimulation (to internet porn) which caused a life changing late night panic attack after hours of stimulating myself. They say porn addiction has similar effects as drugs, like ecstacy, I imagine, raising our dopamine levels. Could be bodies' response to prolonged period of contraction and expansion of nerve pathways and neurological receptors over firing. This is only conjecture - I really don't know.

[Paxiled]

Always take internet advice with some thought.  Xanax taken only as needed the way you're doing it won't cause the problems mentioned above -- that usually happens when you take benzos on a daily basis.  I agree with the above that you don't really have PTSD, but the name doesn't matter -- what matters is that you feel anxious.  My first question would be, has anyone sent you to a psychologist who specializes in anxiety treatment so you might be able to learn to desensitize yourself from the fear you're going to keep getting anxiety attacks because you got one from a drug your brain can't handle.  Lots of people get their first anxiety attacks while high.  If you really do need medication, your therapist will tell you.  

[notmymojo2]

I agree more with you to be honest, and I saw a therapist to work it out when I was 16, like I said it went away for 2 and a half 3 years and because I tried it again I let all came back to me so maybe I'm just having flashbacks? And it comes in goes, today I feel fine. Tomorrow i might be a depersonalized wreck it just depends

[greg12312]

You should follow up with a psychiatrist. The Xanax will cause more problems than resolve. Sure, it will give you short-term relief, but at the cost of rebound anxiety that gets progressively worse until you have to pop Xanax all throughout the day just to get by. What you think is PTSD may actually be anxiety episodes as a result of this and MDMA as a PTSD diagnosis does not quite fit the description you are providing. I would highly encourage you to follow up with a psychiatrist as an outpatient or try an inpatient or residential rehabilitation program. Get off the benzos and recreational drugs. Get on an SSRI. Follow up regularly with a psychiatrist and therapist. And you'll get your mental health back on track.