Drinking advice please

[anxious207]

Does anyone get anxiety from drinking? I went out with a few co workers the other night and I had to much. We were only out for two hours but the last hour I do not remember. Right away I think I did something terrible. Not just bad but terrible. I had this thought of being raped in the bathroom. Anyhow, I did not feel like I had been the next morning, just very hung over. I asked the people I went out with and they told me that we had gone to the bathroom together (like girls do) and nothing bad happened. They assured me I had nothing to worry about and that there was hardly even anyone there. It was not a club or slimy bar, it was a nice restaurant and bar. We had done a few shots and lights out for me. Even after they assured me that nothing bad happened on 5 seperate occasions, its not enough for me and I cant stop thinking about it. I feel like I did something wrong, feel guilty or shameful. This horrible feeling wont go away.
The other thing is that I am married and love my husband more than anything in the world. I have never cheated on anyone before in my life and would never in my right mind do that. Please, any advice

[anxious207]

Thats exactly what happened. I never go out. I have occasional drinks at home. Not remembering is what scares me more than anything. I would not wish this feeling on anyone. I guess I just need to trust the women I went out with. I have a hard time with trusting people as well. They said nothing happened and i need to believe them and move on. Easier said than actually done. But, why would anyone lie? I went to hypnosis and she said that something may have happened to me when I was younger that is triggering this fear. She taught me some interesting meditative things to try. So far I am seeing things a bit more positively. Anyones opinions or reassurance is so helpful, I appreciate all your comments

[Paxiled]

You're obsessing, which is what we anxiety sufferers do.  Otherwise, we wouldn't have chronic anxiety.  But it also sounds like for whatever reason you suffered a bit of alcohol poisoning, meaning for you on that night you went overboard.  For me, a drink can be okay, but even just one can make me feel disoriented, and that can trigger thoughts of anxiety.  But your case sounds almost like blacking out, which means, and again I don't know how experienced a drinker you are, you drank way too much for your system.  At least you know you're not cut out to be an alcoholic!

[anxious207]

Thank you for your comments. I know in the botttom of my heart I would not do anything so bad but I am riddled with the "what if" questions. I have asked my co workers over and over and they keep saying I didnt do anything wrong, nothing happened to me and at no time was I alone where something could have happened. My anxiety just takes over and I have a history of always thinking the worst. I have had anxiety for years but have recently stopped taking meds because we are trying to get pregnant. I dont ask my friends anymore if anything happened because I dont want to sound crazier than I already feel. I am in therapy for this and he says i am thinking the worst too. I am going to try hypnosis to see if I can get this horrible thought out of my heard. It is ruining my life!

[cheshchesh819]

drinking can make your anxiety worse,if ever i have a drinkor too i can feel a bit worse for wear,why are you so convinced that you done something terrible that night,surely your friends would tell you mine would,and think you sounds like a preety sensible person who had to much too drink and because you went blank you have this fear,maybe you should leave the shots alone next time you do go out and just have a glass of wine,i think if you had done something you would in your hearts or heart know.

[mammo]

Drinking increases anxiety, and if you're on medication, you shouldn't be drinking at all.  I think you need to accept what your friends are trelling you, so that this doesn't continue to haunt you and make your anxiety worse.  Your friends would have no reason to lie and would not allow anything to happen to you.  I think it's scary to black out or not have control, but it sounds like your friends kept a close eye on you. Relax and accept that you had a good night and move on.  Next time don't drink and you won't have this worry.  Take care.