Why am I going through this anxiety?

[GladosKuki33]

I am 17, and for the past few years, I've been through so many anxieties, and they are all about the same thing: of how little I can control the universe. First, it was about Heaven, now, for the past few months, it's been HELL. One existential crisis after another, and as time goes by, it gets WORSE. Everytime one anxiety leaves, a BIGGER one goes, and now, it feels like I'm trapped in the biggest one. First, it bothered me of how EVERYTHING before the Big Bang started, and now, since it's said that there is no beginning or end to everything, I just imagine living in an empty dark void of nothing, and this is what the universe will ALWAYS be, even if existence ends, although they say it might not happen. All this does is make me feel like there is no point to life, or it makes me feel trapped and insane. It makes me feel like I have no control over anything, and I WANT IT TO STOP!!! I'm sure it will fade away, but please, someone help me, because I can't take it anymore!

[RozyPeeters]

Hi. Please inbox me. I think i might be able to help. ☺

[anxiety860]

Let's say their is an end to existence, why wouldn't you want to enjoy life while you have it?...  I'm going to assume you believe in some sort of higher power or follow a certain religion as you mention heaven and hell (maybe I'm wrong) but if you are religious you can try praying.  Are you having anxiety over death?  

[GladosKuki33]

Sort of. I do want to enjoy life, but it's incredibly hard to enjoy things, when you KNOW one day you'll fade away.