I turned 19 last February and have been doing drugs for 4 months straight, sometimes every day of the month. It all started with Marijuana which answers the question 'Is Marijuana a gateway to harder drugs?' The answer is of course yes in my case and my friends case. After coming from a well educated middle class household, my life suddenly started to change for the worse. My gran developed Dementia just like my grandfather before he died, I lost my job, I lost my girlfriend and the whole family fell apart. Now I live with my gran and look after her but it gets difficult sometimes. I also failed my last year at College after suffering from major depression along with a suicide attempt. There is of course more that made me that way but it is a long story. Anyway I made a new best friend and he introduced me to weed, I have been smoking the average of 3 pure joints a night for 3 months. Over the last 7 days, he has stopped over and we have taken half a gram, sometimes a gram of MDMA every night along with weed. Today was our final day together before he had to go home, so we celebrated by having a tab of Acid. Now he has gone I feel depressed, anxious and very worried about my mental health. Is it possible that I could have made me depression even worse? Is there a possibility that it could really messing me up in the long term? The lack of serotonin in my body has already made it a nightmare to urinate or get any sexual feeling. You see I love taking the drugs whilst with my best mate, he makes me feel so happy. But I know deep down that all my other friends have deserted me and we are obviously addicts which makes me scared.