We've all heard of seasonal depression, but is there such a thing as seasonal anxiety?
Every winter it's the same thing...I don't get depressed, but I get anxious while being awake when it's dark.
I've never been afraid of the dark...but for the past few years, I feel myself starting to get closer to panic attacks when the sun goes down, or before it comes up.
Today was such a blessing...because of the time change I was able to wake up as the sun was just poking it's head up.
However, I know this won't last too long. I know that within a week or two I'll be waking up in the dark again.
Last night I almost lost it while waiting for hubby to get home. I felt the old, familiar stirrings of a panic attack trying to rear it's ugly head. It never surfaced, but it was ever so close.
I try not to think about it...and it's easier when the sun is shining...but as the light fades...I can't help but to think about it. I try to push it back, but not sure how much longer I can do that.
I have stopped drinking coffee, as was suggested by a nurse, and that seems to help...until I smell the coffee...and then I can't help but have a cup. This triggers the anxiety, so I try and refrain. Hubby has started leaving in the morning without having his coffee...he goes to Tim's instead so that I'm not tempted...except for the past 3 days. After just one cup I find myself on edge. Need better self control. lol
So has anyone ever heard of seasonal anxiety?
Would a sun lamp help? I have one here, but I can't exactly take it from room to room with me. lol