time to get serious

[base09]

hey guys all of you have helped me out alot but i need some more answers so its time to get serious ok well i dont belive its anxiety because of this i sometimes do have the classic symptoms of anxiety but not really and yes ive had the panic attacks but all of this im doing now isnt what i think anxiety even though my therapist says it is and when i ask the doctors about it they just shrug it off but look i wake up every morning everyday thinking that there is something wrong with me i cant work or do anything cuz i feel hopeless that im just gonna die and i dont have much time ok for some reason this stuff happens when i go to work ive lost three jobs cuz of all different kind of symptoms and i cant stop look know i get this weird feeling that im gonna drop dead like faint or something but my heart dosent race im breathing fine i just get this weird weak feeling all day that im gonna drop and my heart will stop beating on top of that i have these muscle twitches all over my body that never goes away thay last all day and all over and you can see them through my clothes and i have these floaters in my eyes that wont go away everyday that goes by i try to tell my self that this is anxiety and i need to stop and i need to go out there and be a man and get a job and just stop all this but then there is that little voice in the back of my head that is saying what if its something else its gotta be cuz im not stressing about anything else but my health i mean they say anxiety comes from underlying stress but im not stressing i am just stressing about my health that there is something teriable wrong with me i mean noone can relate to the feeling that i have when i say im gonna drop out dead i know that faint feeling that yhall talk about but yhall say your heart is racing and your hyperfintalating but im not but anyways some if your can relate to me tell me your story it might help me and can you have bad anxiety just worrying about your health and can my condition be anxiety and do yhall think it is anxiety please anyone if you can relate tell me and teell me what the hell is up with my symptoms

[base09]

i get this urge that im gonna pass out or drop out and lights off i dont know how to explain it its a weird feeling that i cant explain its like a weak feeling that im gonna drop out and i feel like if i take another step i will collapse im breathin fine its just weird and crippling im actually doin it right know and i feel like i should go to the hospital im really scared but i have already been for it and they cant tell me nothin and sometimes when i do it i get really hot and sweatty but most of the time i dont it feels so scary i think im gonna like collapse out and die i dont know how to explain it but have u herd this before in anxiety

[suzi-q]

I know that you say you feel like you are going to die.  My question is, what symptoms do you get that makes your mind think it is "dying?"  Is it lightheadedness.  tiredness, fatigue, any pain?

[base09]

yes i am on meds but does anyone get the weird feeling that they are just gonna drop dead i mean i feel like im gonna collapse and lights out like im just gonna die thats what scares me the most cuz noone ever told me that they have this feeling i mean i get these feelings really bad sometime to the point i cant barley move cuz im afraid im gonna drop out dead and it feels so real it happens really bad when i start to do some work does anyone else get like this

[suzi-q]

You are right, it isn't just anxiety...it also sounds like a full blown case of depression also.  Many times they go hand and hand.  I suffer with both.  The first thing you have to do is come to terms that it is anxiety (and depression).  If all medical tests have come back negative...it is time to change the tape in your head.  Yes, you feel like **** all the time...but you aren't dying...you are not terminal....and you ARE going to get better!!!  You have to first believe it.  I am glad that you have a therapist...is he an MD?  Would you consider medication?  Of course, that is a personal decision.  I thank God for my meds...they have helped me regain my life back.  If you do decide on meds however, I suggest a psychiatrist and not just a regular MD.  The psychiatrist is best at diagnosis and what works best.  I wish you good health...both physically and emotionally...I understand...I have been where you are now.

[suzi-q]

You are right, it isn't just anxiety...it also sounds like a full blown case of depression also.  Many times they go hand and hand.  I suffer with both.  The first thing you have to do is come to terms that it is anxiety (and depression).  If all medical tests have come back negative...it is time to change the tape in your head.  Yes, you feel like **** all the time...but you aren't dying...you are not terminal....and you ARE going to get better!!!  You have to first believe it.  I am glad that you have a therapist...is he an MD?  Would you consider medication?  Of course, that is a personal decision.  I thank God for my meds...they have helped me regain my life back.  If you do decide on meds however, I suggest a psychiatrist and not just a regular MD.  The psychiatrist is best at diagnosis and what works best.  I wish you good health...both physically and emotionally...I understand...I have been where you are now.

[cj29]

You are not alone with this; as Nursegirl has said the majority of people in here sound EXACTLY like you when they first come into this forum to include myself.  My panic/anxiety was focused around my health, especially heart health.  I could not believe that what I was experiencing was panic/anxiety despite constant reassurances from my doctors.  I had muscle twitches, heart palpatations, floaters, you name it, I had it.  

First of all, in my experience, we become oversensitized to our normal feelings.  I can sit here and feel my hear beat (and see it many places on my body), see floaters whilce I am typing this message, feel and see muscle twitches on a daily basis.  In my opinion, we also catastrophicsize our feelings; meaning we assume the worst when really people who do not suffer from anxiety just shrug these off as normal everyday feelings.  Furthermore, as we trudge through this endless cycle, our minds and our bodies become more tired and worn down and we actually feel worse.

But there is SO much hope for you.  Confronting and accepting this anxiety is the first step.  Talking it through with a therapist (psychiatrist, psychologist, counselor, etc) can and will do wonders in 'recovery.'  Also, read as much as you can in this forum and you will see how common your feelings really are in dealing with this.  Keep us posted, and continue to voice your concerns and questions here!

[nursegirl6572]

First a LOT of people can relate to what you are going through...it's health anxiety.  Look through the forum...you will find a LOT of people who feel the same way, if not worse.

You need to seek professional help to get you through this...to learn to cope with the anxiety.  Meds may be an option for you in addition to counseling also.

The sooner you seek help and start dealing with your anxiety, the sooner you will be able to cope with it and start living your life again.  You are not alone.

Stick around....you are among a lot of people just like yourself.