I took Zoloft in the past and it worked great. The next time I took it, not so great. I had different side affects and my Dr said this was normal and was happy to change it for me. So talk to your Dr about chaning your anti-depressant because your body CAN change in response to a medication, any medication
As for your anxiety about HIV, I think anyone who actually thinks they have contracted it would have this said anxiety. But once you tested negative, don't you think that should have been answer enough? You are negative for HIV, congrats!!!
Maybe you need to be treated for anxiety AND depression. And yes, they are different treatments. And just remember that none of us are Dr's and can only offer you our personal experience. I was in no possible way exposed to HIV or Syphilis. But because my recent health scare warranted an HIV and syphilis test to "rule it out" I was willing to take it and I was anxious about the results. Its just one of those things that scares you regardless.
So talk to your Dr. Take some deep breaths. Jump for joy that you are negative.
No I did not find it rude,offensive or wrong and I thank you very much for taking the time for me. I realize hiv is not my problem but rather fear is my problem and I am currently seeking help. Thank you for the brutal honesty, I really do appreciate it.
Let's begin with the Zoloft. If you've taken it in the past, tolerated it well and it helped, then there is no reason to think this time will be any different. Most of us go through some discomfort when starting an antidepressant. Perhaps you just don't remember that part. I don't know how long you've been on it so far, but it will take a few weeks to reach therapeutic levels and you begin to feel better. If it's been a month and you're still having difficulty with side effects, then you should discuss this with your doctor.
Since you don't tell us what you believe was "risky" sexual behavior, then I guess it was a good thing you got tested and I'm glad the test was negative.
Your next three "encounters" were ALL no risk situations.
You CANNOT contract HIV by fingering someone. And please, spare me the "no cuts, tears or bleeding" drama. Any fluids that happened to get on your hands would have been exposed to the air which renders HIV inactive within seconds. NO RISK
Then you accidentally touched a tampon from the Sanatin bin, once again with no cuts, tears or bleeding. (I seem to be a bit confused. Are you a man or a woman?) Either way, what were you doing rooting around in the tampon/kotex disposal box? Perhaps I'd rather not know. At any rate, the fact is that if any bood was on the tampon, it would have been rendered inactive within seconds after the person tossed it in there. NO RISK
Next we find you at a gas station buying ice cream which you were eating with a plastic spoon, when you suddenly noticed what "appeared" to be a speck of blood on the spoon, which may or may not have been what caused you to have a cut on the corner of your mouth. IF, and that is a massively huge "IF," the speck on the spoon had actually been blood, it would have been there long enough for the air to have rendered it inactive.
NO RISK.
Within days you began to develope symptoms of HIV.........sore throat, sore glands, tired and really worn down. Since HIV symptoms do not show up that soon, I'm guessing you may have caught a cold and just aren't getting enough rest staying up worrying about your HIV.
You're wondering what the hell is wrong with you. Well, from what you've written here, you definitely have HIV Anxiety and there are millions of people who can relate to the obssessive thoughts & feelings.
As for "guidance and support," get into therapy to deal with your HIV Anxiety and in your spare time, begin getting yourself educated about HIV/AIDS. Spend as much time as you can reading our HIV Prevention Forum and within weeks you will have learned enough to realize that if you had known enough about HIV, you would never have had to write this post. Knowledge IS power and it's all yours for free.................
If you should happen to find my response rude, wrong or offensive, please cut and paste it over to our HIV Prevention Forum and have Teak or Lizzie review it.
Greenlydia