Thank you for sharing your story. I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope someday you will be able to hold a healthy baby in your arms and he/she will grow up to call you mommy.
Hi erinbeth2, i'm so sorry for your loss but i assure u i know what u are feeling b/c i have a similar story, we lost our angel Zakh in July 2008, he was 6months old & in Dec 2010, we had a miscarriage @ 14weeks, 2 days after the last appt where we heard his heartbeat & the doctor assured us all was find. i felt contractions & when we got to the hospital, i started bleeding, the doctore arrived & told us we lost our baby again, ihad a d&c & that was it. so i want to assure u i know what u feel but i haven't lost the hope & faith to start TTC b/c we have put our hope in God. Him alone can console ur heart & give u back the hope & take away ur fear. follow ur doctor's instruction, let ur body heal emotionally & physically, then put ur trust in God & start TTC. in God u find peace, acceptance (b/c He alone knows why all happends), comfort, joy, faith & courage to move forward. don't let fear & grief take away the joy & good thins God has prepared for u. talk with ur darling, share ur pain together b/c that's how u both heal & pray b/c through prayer, u'll get closer to God & he'll heal ur pain. this is how we have been able to go through it my husband & I, once we're ready we'll start TTC.
the Bible says "two is better than one", u're stronger 2 than if u were alone & pray, put ur trust in God & u'll get better as days go on. use these Bible quotes to pray Philippians 4 vs 4-9 & Hebrews 11 vs 1 (if u have a Bible read them or u can read it online).
may God bless u & ur husband & may He grant u His peace through Jesus.
stay blessed & courage. sorry again for ur loss but i pray ur fears go away so u shall find & experience the joy of motherhood. have faith & being afraid will be a story...
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story, that must have taken a lot of courage to share.
I myself have had two miscarriages as well. Mine only grew to be 7 weeks, but I know how empty the feeling can be when trying to conceive and finally being successful, only to be let down again.
I wish you a world of luck, someday soon enough I am sure you will have a beautiful healthy baby!