Tell us about your Angel!

[rdh1981]

My little Angels name is Cooper. He was born on June 6th, 2008. He was born with a heart condition called HLHS. We found out about his condition at his 18 wk ultrasound. Of course our world was shattered but we were prepared to fight!

The day after Cooper was born he was taken to Children's Hospital. It was there that we met the most amazing nurses and doctors. We could not have asked for more loving people. After two weeks in the NICU, Cooper underwent his first open-heart surgery. Sadly things did not go so well so they had to operate a total of three more times. On July 23rd his doctors told us that he was not going to make it and we had to make a decision. I was not prepared for this at all.  Thankfully my brave little Angel made this decision for us.  He was in my arms the last time he took his last breath.  His chest was still open from his surgery and I could see his little heart stop beating.  At that point my world had ended. I was ready to leave this world and be with him again.

It has been a little over a year since my little man became an Angel and I know he has never left my side.  Through the help of my husband, my family, my counselor and my support group, I can now smile again!  Cooper  blessed us with so much! He even gave us his little brother! Cruz Cooper was born on August 11th, 2009! This little guy will grow up to know all about the love and hope his brother brought into this world!!!

I have plenty of pictures of Cooper on my profile page, so feel free to look at my beautiful little angel!

Thank you for reading my story and thank you for sharing yours with me!

[Tinkerita]

At 20 weeks of gestation we got recaled for our ultrasound because they had seen problems with our child. When we got there they discovered that he had possibly Meckel-Gruber syndrome. We were devastated as they said he would probably die in utero and if he did get to t erm he would die shortly after. They suggested abortion. We decided to keep our child and give him the chance to die on his own. They did all kind of genetic research and it all lead to the same conclusion that he would die soon. The pregnancy went well despite all that and at 37 weeks I gave birth to a breached child that we named Jacob. He lived for 16 minutes, the best minutes of our lives. He had all the symptoms of a Meckel-Gruber child but in our eyes he was the most beautiful baby ever. We do not regret our decision to let him live

[tarrah87]

first off i just want to say i'm sorry to every single one of you ladies who have lost their little one, my hearts go out to you and hope you find peace. before i begin i lost a baby at 8 wks as a miscarriage in aug 07, 3 months later i got pregnant again and on valentines day of 08 we found out we were having identical twins, at that point i was 14 wks. we went to our 20 wk scan and found out we were having identical twin boys.... we were so excited things were going good then it got quiet. we found out our little anges had twin to twin transfusion syndrome known as ttts, and i had an incompetent cervix. well there were only 3 places in the united states at that time who could do the precedure to try to help with this and take care of it, california, florida, and ohio. well 3 days had passed and we got my insurance to cover all costs and drove to cinncinatti ohio where we went through many tests and etc. during that time they checked my cervix on day 2 it was so short i wasn't able to walk at all bed rest for rest of time and wheel chair while at the hospital. we had echo's done on twins as well as other tests and was told it had progressed to a 3 out of 5 and 5 is death of one or more twin. i was immedietly released from fetal care center and sent to l&d at university hospital. there i met with a few doctors who told me the precedure that i would  have a cerclage then amnio to reduce fluids and had to weight for my cervix to be so long b4 we could have the operation we went up there for. well next morning my doctor wasn't there so an hour late another doctor shows up and wheels me to the Operating Room, gave me my spinal/epideral and etc, put the curtain up so i couldn't see ne thing. well i was told to lift my legs and i didn't know what whas going on bc couldn't see and sick ... well the amnio was done first which then started contractions and labor, when they went to put the cerclage in i was told it was too late, i had bulging membranes.  they sent me to recovery for an hour or so, and during that time, my water broke. i was rushed to labor and delivery and within an hour i had my lil angel preston. he was only 8 oz at 21 wks. and i held for a few moments and then pain started bc of going into labor for the other twin. they took preston bc he was still born. a lil while had passed and i had aiden he was right at a 1lb. he was still breathing and you could see his little heart beating, i was devistated and so upset , my bf held him but i couldn't image knowing my baby was going to die. they told me there was nothing they could do, i never got to hold him and regret this to this day. there isn't a minute that passes that i don't think of him and wish i could tell him how much i loved him but i it all happened so fast i was distraught and it was terrible. i cried for days, weeks and even now here and there when looking at pics. the nurses made a scrap book and took some pics for me. i never got a death certificate bc they were a few days shy of 21 wks i was told.  i was released at 7pm and the following morning we drove back home to tn empty handed. i didn't have a funeral for them. i miss then more and more everyday. so i lost my two angels on march 20, 2008; my cousins birthday; my family was in florida with my grandfather bc of his cancer. it was a terrible day. it was 3 days b4 my 21st birthday i got home the day b4 my birthday. aiden lived for a lil over an hr b4 passing away. but in the end i know i wouldn't have my beautiful lil girl madison if that didn't happen. and i can't see my life w/o her.

[rdh1981]

wishing- I am so sorry. Your story is heartbreaking. I am so glad you found us and I hope we can bring you some support.  

ready4baby- thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so sorry you had to find this site. I wish you still had that little one in your arms.  

Just know that your baby is always watching over you! Please feel free to message me when you need to talk!

[Ready_4_Baby_2]

This is probably the hardest forum post I have had to read since i joined Medhelp over the summer. I joined after I had my IUD out back in June...we concieved right away. We both wanted a little boy but it didnt matter either way. My pregnancy was going well and I was so excited to go to our anatomy scan to see the sex. My husband and I both guessed it was a boy but my daughter said girl, however when the U/S tech started the US she was very quiet. She wouldnt turn the screen around and I knew something was wrong. There was no fluid around the baby and there were multiple cyst on both of the kidneys. I just knew there was nothing to be done but we had to wait another day to see my OB doctor. She told us it didnt look good but we needed to see a high risk doctor. Our baby had a strong heartbeat and was still moving. When we went to see the High Risk doctor she confirmed the worst...the cyst werent compatible with life. So I had to deliever the baby and my labor wasnt bad at all. Our little Matthew was perfect to us. He has very broad shoulders and looked just like my husband with my lips. The next day we had prayer service at the hospital with our family.

I'm trying to get things back to normal at my house but its so hard. I'll be attending a support group in the next couple of week and I'm hoping it will help.

[wishing2beamom10]

I first of all want to express my heartfelt empathy for you.  My little Angel was born on October 10th 2009.  The finding out process was almost entirely the same, this is our first baby and was to be the first grandbaby on my side of the family as well as the first boy.  I was 23 weeks and hadn't felt him move for almost 2 days...this was my first pregnancy and therefore just didn't realize the need to call the doctor.  They sent me up to L/D and tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler....then wheeled in the ultrasound machine...then brought in the doctor on call who still couldn't find the heartbeat...there was no mistaking-there wasn't one to be found. It was more than heartbreaking.  It was easily the most heart wrenching pain I've ever experienced and hope to ever experience-my heart goes out to women who have to go through this experience.  I was induced that day and delivered our sweet little Bridger on the following day at 4:20pm.  He as 1.6pounds and 12.5 inches long.  He was beautiful, the most amazing miracle I've ever seen.  We got to hold him for hours at the hospital, wishing he was able to hear us say how much we love him. My arms still ache for our precious little baby. I am once again, so sorry that you and any woman has to go through this.  It will be 4 weeks tomorrow for us and our little one and what I woudn't give to hold him again!  
Our little babies are watching over us and I know that they know how much we love them!

[gymmom222]

Thank you for your kind words!  It is a wonderful feeling to know that I am not alone and that people are thinking about my baby.

I never thought I would loose my son - I was 35 weeks pregnant so I thought I was in the clear by that point.

Thank you!!!!