Bipolar - the winds of a manic episode

[AnonymousGuy888]

Months ago after a few encounters with commercial sex workers and a manic episode (before I knew I was bipolar), I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and put on Seroquel (400mg/day) and Depakine Chrono (750mg twice/day)

I haven't been taking my meds for a few months due to problems where I live and I cannot succumb to deep sleep caused by the meds sedating effect

The winds of a manic episode are here. Here I am, contemplating sex with strangers again (I am married), contacting escorts .......etc. I am losing the feeling of guilt or shame. I want to do it. I want to hide it from my psychiatrist/friend so he would not make me take the meds. In other words I am liking the manic episode which on some level scares me ...... but I am feeling out of control

HELP ............I don't want to go back down that road again :(

[darlenedaisy]

Hi,
Shaming you is noy going to help any, it will only make matters worse. I am angry at the above comments because clearly, there is a lack of understanding about mania.
If you want to stop the bahaviour and you are bipolar, the only way is to get med help. It takes time to find the right med, but tell your doc that you will not tolerate a drug that makes you tirwd or sick. Do research, then discuss which med YOU want to try. Work with your doc, it is your body, so you must have a say in your treatment.
You already are well aware Of the consequences of this, and if you know it is out of control, get help. I refuse to judge you, because if you are ill with bipolar, you need support, not hate.
Hang in there. Darlene

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Hypersexuality can be a part of bipolar disorder when one is manic.  It just happens sometimes.

[Bubulous]

Feelings and emotions become very intense during mania.  It isn't just romanitic energy that can be channeled through us at this time but also anger, shame, and basically any emotion that a person can feel.  It is definitely important that you discuss this with your doctor and it may even be necessary to check into inpatient for a short time.  Mania can be channeled into productive activitie at times.  If you can figure out how to do that or can remember times when you have before you might be able to do something that you will not regret later.
I hope you come back and check on this thread because I would like to discuss it further with you.
You should not be ashamed for feeling this way.  Shame is not for how you feel.  It should only be used as a tool to keep you from acting on those feelings.

[Soonakingelkingeen]

Hello, AnonymousGuy888. I am studying bipolar disorders in Egypt and was hoping if you can help me, thank you very much.

[Bubulous]

Be careful guy studying bipolar that you do not hijack a poster's thread on my community.  This is not the proper way to contact someone about information.  This poster wanted help and support, not to be solicited for information.

[Narnia41]

Please talk this out with your doctor/psychiatrist.  It is a symptom of mania and you can get help through meds but also talking therapy.
Don't be offended by the comments above of someone who clearly doesn't understand the nature of mania, hypersexuality is a fact of mania not an excuse to be promiscuous.  

[lindahand]

There are drugs other than seroquel that won't leave you in a funk. I found risperadol didn't and Geodone doesn't (although Geodone can increase agitation) so ask your pdoc about your options. But please go and see your pdoc. You have enough self awareness to know things are wrong so it is your duty to yourself and especially your wife to get back on meds until the swing passes.

You have a lot to lose. Not many women will stick around while you cheat on them. Whether or not mania is causing the hyper-sexuality. Do something while there is still time.

Tanya

[AnonymousGuy888]

I don't know why I have to sleep with strangers. The impulse is stronger than me :(

I don't know why I don't respect my body ..... last time after the two encounters I had HIV anxiety and got tested twice ...... :(

Btw I am a man not a woman so it's my wife not my husband !

In both encounters I used condoms .... I never had any unprotected sex

Again I am a man so I am not letting "guys" do what they please to me .....

I know medication and mental issues are not an excuse ...... After the first encounter I was so remorseful, then I had the second one, I went into a euphoric high (I did not know that this was mania) and I sought help and accordingly I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Medication improved my condition a thousand fold

I have stopped meds since January (3 months ago) so again I did not feel the need to sleep around the moment I stopped them.

I am asking for help because I don't know why I am acting this way. I have lived for 29 years a conservative, religious and an idealistic life ......I don't know what has gotten into me in the last few months :(

[Bubulous]

Do not feel that you need to defend how you feel.  Feelings of any type are hightened during mania.  This is not the place for us to be shamed  and I hope you come back for support.

[grannienannie]

why would you feel that you have to sleep with strangers...arent you worth more than a few minutes of someones time...dont you respect your body and your marriage?...do you know you are risking yourself and your husband for something you cant get rid of..? condoms are not 100% protective..what are you doing to your mind and your self esteem? You should be helping yourself and the problems you have mentally...you think your making it any better..letting guys do what they please to your body...and please tell me your using condoms if you visit them below...you could get something in your mouth and pass it on to your husband...your more than out of control..and a doctor cant help you if you cant find the respect you need for yourself...medication and mental issues is not an excuse to sleep around and disrespect yourself...treat your body like the temple it is...know that what you have is precious if it wasnt those men wouldnt be comming around...you let them..take away what little soul you have left....

[Bubulous]

Please read this thread to add to your knowledge of bipolar.  I am not going to get after you for your feelings no more than I would the original poster.  However, hyper-sexuality is an intense feeling tied to extreme emotions that are difficult to control.