bipolar

[cazjo]

Hi I'm new i have bipolar disorder but what confuses me more is that my head never shuts up from the minute i wake till i go sleep its just me talking to myself I think but I'm also talking for others like proper conversations once one as stopped another will start or anything from just do doing or what I'm doing tomorrow its a battle in my own head I have appointment with doctor to go over this it effects my relationships and my life i kept ending a relationship i was in and he asked my way and when i said its not me its the voices in my head he looked at me gone out and said its not normal but then again he suffered from depression himself please someone help is this normal or am i really loosing it as I've lived my hole life like this and I'm now 30 to find out only a couple of months ago this may not be normal is scary i never said anything before that because i thought everyone does this but i really do switch off when I'm over thinking/talking in my head

[Bubulous]

Welcome to the forum.  Please come back on whenever you need support or just want to talk about anything bipolar.  You will find support here and this is a good community.

[CRSeaside]

Well it's good to hear from you & I'm glad you are posting. Being a single parent and working. Wow!    Consider yourself amazing.

[cazjo]

Last year I had someone in my head telling me just kill myself im not worth it n I sort of said when time is right it was going on for a few weeks next minute i week up week later out of a coma taken my meds i am a single mum of 3 my girls dad left when my youngest was 3 months so i get no help with them but i am making changes this site being one to help me i don't want my kids to loose their mum but its like building a house with bricks put up so many one will fall then the rest will fall as well but i am i think reaching out now i did ask for help b4 i took my overdose n didn't get it

[cazjo]

Your right he was a liar its sort of thing I have ideas in my head all time of what I'm gonna do I decorate every year im doing it again now but once i start my head won't let me stop till its finished i will over think in my head i will sort of have one person i know there n i will say something then i will sort of talk for him or her if i have a appointments i will sort of make up what's gonna be said in my head first but the conversation never goes that why if Yano what i mean i have appointment on 10th to see my psychiatrist

[breakdance202]

Just for clarification, do you constantly think about what you're doing? Like have a monologue in your head about it. Example: I'm going to the store. I'm drinking this beverage. I'm cutting this fruit, etc? And do you come up with conversations for other people, and feel that you know what others are thinking, like you can read their minds?

Do you have racing thoughts, and that's what keeps you up at night?

Maybe make a doctor's appointment, preferably with a psychiatrist, and get an opinion on this.

Racing thoughts are the worst, especially when it feels like your thoughts are screaming in your head and won't stop.

I'd just get a doctor's opinion on it.

If it's something you've experienced your entire life, it may just be a normal thing for you. Everyone has their strange quirks. I have this annoying thing I do before I make any phone calls or have to talk to a doctor, where I envision the entire conversation in my head and what I'm going to say, because I get anxious about it.

[davers716]

1 everyone talks to them self  
2 anyone who says they don't is a liar or hasn't figured it out

you are not loosing it at all promise you that and trying the meds is great   seeking help is great   relationships are great  all these things are great

and i have had this really intense before  its like a monologue in your head and you are the announcer  

do you fear judgement>?  Are you holding back a lot of your ideas and thoughts on the world thats currently in front of you?      if so  your mind may be trying to compensate for not being able to be honest with yourself and these other forces in world whether its ppl  the physical world whatever  by running the things you want to truely and subconciously project outward areound in your mind 24/7

[CRSeaside]

Ok. I took Seraquell & Zonisimide for about 4 yrs. really helped me sleep. The Zonisimide has no weight gain side effect so that was good.
I'm on Geodone and adivan at night now. My current Pdoc changed my day & night meds.
Sometimes it's just trail & error to get the right combo of meds with minimum side effects.
CBT is helpful too. Most psychologists are trained to teach you this way of thinking.
Also be careful of stimulants. Sugary drinks high in caffine or too much coffee.
Taking amino acid supplements and omega 3 oil are both considered helpful for bipolar disorder.

[cazjo]

Yes silly me I forgot to mention I am on medication I did stop taking it for a while but now I'm back on them thoughts are more when I'm in bed so I'm not getting sleep I do still have them through the day but defo more noticeable at night

[CRSeaside]

Racing thoughts can be part of bipolar disorder. Medication can help