Well I dnt think I was born bipolar althouugh my parents say I had a very strong anger issue were I used to rip evry picture wen I was pissed off! I also ran away a lot but I think it was more bcuz of depression at age 15 though I started smokin pot nd evr since then I think the drugs made me bipolar! Cuz I dnt member changing moods much till now! I also dnt think u were delusional a lot of kids have imaginations like tat! I used to think the joker frm batman was out to get me! Nd use to hide under the car! Nd Freddie I knw how u feel wen u say tat u think ur opinion doesn't matter I feel like tat too sumtimes! Nd hate tat cuz it pisses me off since I knw I'm not crzy nd tat my opinions do matter! Smh! If only pple would understand us they would knw how we feel nd not b so judgmental all the time!
I had beliefs like yours as a child as well and to this day I have some delusional thinking. I am more aware of it as delusions and I don't like them because even though I can tell myself it is part of my disease, the thoughts seem so real.
I had to respond because you might have been writing about my childhood. I had such similar experiences.
This is all very complex, I am sorry that you feel like you are being patronised by your psychologist, your beliefs are important and you shouldn't feel that you are being discredited.
I think psychologists and pyschiatrists honestly do care about us and want to help us but they do seem to be very text book at times, they don't seem to be able to open their minds..
I don't think it matters whether you are a child or adult, but I do think that children are more susceptible to having strange experiences, kids minds are very open, unbiased and have less knowledge to cloud their thoughts. I think you are seeking closure about the experiences you had as a child and you no doubt feel insulted that the psychologist brushed them off as delusions without much discussion. I think this has led to you thinking that you can't trust her and that she is stealing your thoughts.
Delusions/hallucinations are an indicator of ill health, that something quite sinister is going on.. but how does one classify what is delusion and what is real?
I have certain beliefs to so with spiritualism and I don't like it when these are classed as delusions! I guess it depends on how rational we are..if it is a really outrageous thing we believe, then being bipolar we have to accept that we could be a little high or paranoid. I have had delusions before that I could rationalise, I knew that my thinking was odd to an extent. I thought that my son was being poisoned at school.
I think that you are getting really stressed about all this, and that won't help at all. I think your psychologist is probably trying to safeguard you, and make sure you aren't becoming really unwell..but sometimes delusions and hallucinations don't actually do any harm to anyone. Its just from a professional view they think there is a very thin line between delusions and pyschosis.
Its a tough one Freddie, everyone has their own opinions.
I was thinking as a few weeks i was told some of my thinking was delusional from my psychologist and wants me to see a psychiatrist. I was pissed off and kinda still am, as i don't think that it is delusional at all. I have been issues since i was young and believe that i was born with bipolar too. what do you think? do you think it actually matters if someone is delusional or hallucinating or not? is it important weather you are a child or an adult? does it make any different to what is the truth or what is made up. I find it hard to believe the brain is capable of making up such a big part of ones life. I hate the fact that when i am told this it is said in such a way to suggest that none of what i say or think is no longer creditable. they no longer want to hear my side of it. I was completely logical! but i do admit that when i was younger those beliefs my be a bit extreme but maybe it was my way of coping with my depression and as i was extremely sensitive to everything.
I am so confused. its like the psychologist doesn't want me to be happy like she is trying to shut down my knowledge so no one else will find out. sometimes i feel her stealing my thoughts from my head which i know isn't legal. Is it all related?
Interested.
Hiya :)
A lot of the things you said I can relate to.. I have asked similar questions myself.
It is a running joke in my family to make fun out of me for my beliefs as a child.. I used to tell people that I could turn lights and lamposts on and off with my mind, my family think its a hilarious childhood belief but I was actually 14 at the time..
I think to some degree that our Bipolar was there in our childhood, there is so much research but I am yet to find any conclusive evidence as to whether we are born like this or whether the bipolar came about as a result of our enviroment, I think it differs from person to person..
I believe that I did have Bipolar symptoms as a child, I must have had something going on to take an overdose at 11 years old.
I think in childhood we are very receptive to extra senses, I know I was spirited, and looking back my Mother remembers some strange behaviours that I exhibited..as children we have less inhibitions and our imaginations are so acute.
It is a very difficult question, but from what you have said and from experiences of my own I would say that it is definitely possible that they were delusions :)
Has anyone else got any ideas?