Does anyone else get this?

[rBoulet]

For the past 2 or so months my mood has been going from really really hyper and agitated, with almost no attention span. Almost no sleep because I'm not tired at all, feeling extremely good and talking more and louder instead of being my shy quiet self. I feel excited and happy for no reason at all. I know all that points to mania but that's not my question.
My question is has anyone else experienced going from that type of mood, down to something close to normal for most of a day where you're only a little agitated and a little hyper but not so much that you're totally annoying the heck out of the people around you. And then going back up when night comes and stay like that for a week or two, then back down, then back up, and so on.
I'm used to the whole "Hey you just felt great so here's a face full of depression for a month or two" I've never experienced just going in and out of any sort of manic like state for an extended period of time and I want to know if anyone else has experienced this before.

Also, my friend is kind of worried because I kind of told her about what was on my mind while I was feeling really up. I told her I was fantasizing over and over in my mind killing my mother in different ways. I would never do it, but my friend is taking me to the hospital on Wednesday night. I really want a doctor to see my like this so they stop with the whole "Maybe you're not bipolar, maybe you are, we've never seen you manic before" stuff but I'm kind of worried that maybe on Wednesday it will be one of those days when I've come down for a bit. What should I say to the doctor if it's one of those days? And will they admit me if they know about the whole thing in my mind with my mother? I know they do if you fantasize about suicide but I have no idea what they do for homicidal stuff...

[beautifulbritty712]

I can definitely relate to you here, knowing you need help but not knowing where to look. How I got help was by my sister calling a mental hospital in my area and they told me where to go to be seen immediately. I have no insurance but they helped me anyway, they sent me to an outpatient program at the mental hospital. I was having homicidal/suicidal thoughts but was not hospitalized because I told them I did not have actual plans to act on them. the program helped a lot, I was on meds the next day and they had coping classes, anger management, repressed feelings. All kinds of things that were helpful, and they assessed me and sent me to the classes they thought i would benefit most from. Hopefully you can find something like this in your area.

[rBoulet]

Ended up going to the hospital today instead, but there was no psychiatrist on call in the emergency room so I ended up having to talk to a physician. He said all he could do was give me a prescription to sleeping pills since I hadn't slept in a long time and that I should call my usual doctor and ask him to refer me to a psychiatrist. Thing is my usual doctor is totally and utterly useless, so I don't know if he'd even do that for me.

[Bipolarbear72]

MOST DEFINATELY...this is the way my illness works for me...I have Bipolar 2 Rapid Cycling.  It's no fun and I feel for you.  The thoughts of your mother def may be somewhat of a psychotic episode and the Dr def needs to be told.  Do you take Seraquel?  I wish you the BEST of LUCK and hope you get some relief soon!  Maybe you need a change of meds???  Stay in touch...

[ILADVOCATE]

I did experience that before recovery. That might be some form of rapid cycling and the thoughts you have could be psychotic. You should definitely speak to your psychiatrist about that.