hi guys ..it has been a while
i am not doing well at all.........mixed feelings and i do not know what to do with myself ,,,,,,,,,but i am sick of talking and even people around me do not take it any more ,,why do i have to pout my depression upon someone,?,,,,,,,,have stopped doing that for 2 or 3 month and it is not easy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,especially when i have feeling of unexplained fear like now,,,,,,,i wish to die to top this feeling
am not taking meds as a preparation for pregnancy and am not sure i can do it,,,,,,,,,,,,even when i was on meds i was not ok,,,it is the same
sorry if i do not reply back ,sometimes i just cannot even type i just sit doing nothing ,maybe read the comments and want to write back but i just cannot......................
.i know i am not making sense but it feels as if somebody is listening but without the guilt of upsetting them....................thx